Sometimes i imagine,
Happily sailing through life,
You and me walking hand in hand,
Able to face each problem and strife,
Experiencing an affection that understands.

Where i can rest all my anxiety in your comforting arms,
Conquer every goal and see victory,
And not come across despair or harm.

Sometimes i just wish to be lost in you and in your passion,
Bath in your tenderness and rejoice,
To drown in the sea of your affection,
And float in bliss listening to your voice.

You drive me crazy,
You drive me euphoric.

Just in case there is no tomorrow for me,
I just want to let you know,
I am really thankful to have a girlfriend like you.
And i have engraved every moment we had together deep into my heart,
Which i shall always remember, forever.


We'll conquer this together, and see light at the end of 5 years.
Yes, 5 years is abit too long, but for our happiness, i'm sure it will be worth it.
We'll walk through this together, i mean it.
I know you are serious, i am serious too. (:
I dont want history to repeat itself, i wont let history repeat itself.
So, stay happy.
Most importantly, keep your smile.
Your smile will make my day.

I love you, Lim Wei Jun Regine.
I mean every single word i say.
:D

hc <3

the thought of having to break up with you scares me.
i really dont want one, even if you're force to.
i can lie on a low profile with you, as low as you want. but i cnt accept a break up.
not being able to see you is bad.
not being able to call you, is worse.
but not having you is, worst, it's fatal.
5 yrs = 1825 days.
i can only see you like once a week?
that makes only 52 days outta 365 days.
which means outta 1825 days only 260 days of being with you.
each day w/o u feels like a decade.
which means 1565 deacades before we can be together openly.
this is scary.

the movies we want to watch.
the sentosa trip you mentioned.
the rings we are going to buy.
the stars we are going to watch every year on my birthday.
the flyer that we have not sat.
the lego thing you have not seen.
the shopping trips for yr prom shoes and my winter clothes.
the biantai games we've yet to try.
the swimming pool you've yet to book so that we can swim.
i've yet help you style yr hair.
my i/c you've yet to collect with me.
your O's cert i've yet to collect with you.
.
.
.
.
so many things we've yet to fulfil.

definations of 'break up',
a.to separate; scatter.
b.to put an end to; discontinue.
c.to divide or become divided into pieces.
d.to dissolve.
e.to disrupt; upset: Television commercials during a dramatic presentation break up the continuity of effect.
f.(of a personal relationship) to end: to break up a friendship; Their marriage broke up last year.
g.to end a personal relationship: Bob and Mary broke up last month.
h.to be or cause to be overcome with laughter: The comedian told several jokes that broke up the audience.


hc,
lets make this clear first, come to an agreement befr smth we do not wish to happen, happens.
if one day you were to call me, and ask for a break up, i will accept. but not in my heart.
i know you are force to say it.
break up means to end a personal relationship, which i clearly know you dont want to.
you said to me you will nvr lie to me, so this lie that you were force to tell will not be accepted by me, i will not take it seriously.
even if after you asked for a break up, and i accept, i will continue to count the days we've been together.
because this is the first time im really serious in a relationship, i love my partner, and i felt loved back.
i will wait for your return, but giv me motivation. giv me a call once in awhile, a sms if you can, to let me know you're still there for me. and we will walk this thru tgt.
i've messed up yr O's.
i've messed up you and yj.
i've messed up yr family.
and i wont leave jus liddat, after all that has happened, the more i will stay .
i will wait, even if it takes months. or even 5 yrs. cause 10 yrs later i still want to hold on to yr comfy hands, lie on yr bed, talk dirty things and watch stars with you.

Regine.

haha. funny person.
lols. yr post damn funny man.
seriously, made my day.
thanks for the curses, but i dont think any of it will come thru luh. LOLSS

woke up, with my brain still sleeping. so went to sch in a blur blur state.
even at chem test i was still blur blur, i dont even know what's ''oxidation state'' . and fuck lah, it's like i forget what comes after ABC. lucky i rmb in time.
then slept thru out english, SHIOK!
A maths, sucks. im starting to lose interest in this sub. whereas ais is starting to put in alot of effort for mrs leong hor. FOR MRS LEONG, not for A MATHS. =O
chinese sucks even more. they hire what best teachers from the best chinese tuition center . then the thing last for 2 hrs. wthhhh.
and and and, THANK GOD chem prac was cancelled.
decided to make a trip to visit baby. apprantly i think it was a bad idea. shall elaborate .
i went home, bath, faster come out.
faster board the train. and only know i board the wrong train after 3 stops. SEE SO BLUR!! grrr.
then faster rush to the sch, tripped while rushing thr, lucky i wore jeans. wasnt injuired.
lucky lucky i reach in time.
then walk walk walk, made a wrong move. (why i say, i shouldnt hav gone down)
i went to buy drinks in front of baby's friends.


baby, i dunno how to help you .
i say ler, time will make her accept you der.
whatever choice u make, i will support you.
even if im the one upset.
if im yours, i will return.

HAHAHAHA!
the previous post explains why she suddenly ran off to use comp for like 5 mins, and smiling to the screen, then asked me dont go online tonight.
alright..today is a wonderful day, splendid xDD
sch, sucks.. was late and got DC smr, how lame can the sch get.
boring A maths, boring SS, boring geog. only chem a bit ABIT only, of laughter.
skipped chem practical . titration again, dont see the need to do luh.

sooo after sch, changed. went to yishun.
went to hc's hse, WASNT KIPNAPPED.
ehhh, played her psp til fell asleep. then look around cause v.bored.
then her bro came home, saw me, GASPED v.loudly. like he found gold liddat.
then soon, her father came home, unexpected.
then i hide by the beds , cause her parents dunno i went to their hse.
then her father saw me, like ohshit. but..nth much happened.
then we prepared our ''script''. and her sis v.pro, know alot of things.
but i dunno who, the whole family except her father see me smile til like they found gold liddat.
luckyy i dint see her mother. very very scared you know. exams i also not so nervous can?
wahh, scared the hell outta me when got 2 false alarm that her mother came home.
ilyt! <3 :DD

HELLO! :D
Regine's at my house now.
I've just kidnapped her. (:
I'm not going to release her.
xP

OKAY, random.
I hacked into her account, she doesnt know.
Dont let her know, she'll kill me.

Signing off,
Cheers, hc.
P.S : Dont delete this post uh! xP

ily <3

ytd packed my room at night.
've no idea why my mom hav to stir up trouble for me, jus let my room be messy luh.
like will die liddat.
she threw all, ALL my bro's stuff out of my rooms. clothes and books. this 2 things made up like 15-18 big bags? mostly are books lar, he bookworm. no time for shopping.
then i had to sorta all my w/s from starting of the yr. it was like 5 Amaths tb thick?
and im goin to giv credits to the following sub for the following reasons :
the most environmentally unfriendly :
PHYSICS, MR HO. he practically print the textbook out since he had nvr touch upon the textbook.
the most useless :
CHINESE, MDM XU. all, okay mayb only 96% of my w/s are blank.
the lamest of all :
MATHS, MDM THILAGAM(srry sidd) . damn lame sia the w/s . stupid enough can those paper.
the most cabbage papers :
A MATHS, MRS LEONG. too useful liao the papers, i write, i read til become cabbage paper.
packed til, 10 pm, then bath, then sleep.

my body is aching badly. felt like i jus got banged by a car, then banged y another upcoming lorry.

Thurs

skipped the ''use your hands'' campaign , and came to sch only when it ended. who wants to go sch and clean tables, waste my time going down. if it wasnt for the chem practical i wont even go sch. anyw, reach sch, giv report book, do chem prac. and that bladdy miss toh, keep pickin on me. say nvr write proper statement. nvr write proper procedure. nvr write register no. nvr write fullname. nvr write class. damn crap sia her.
anyw, after ended , rushed down to yishun. send baby to sch, went home and bath.
then go fetch baby from sch and sent her home.

Fri

morning left hse at erm, 9?
then went to mac at khatib, did maths holi ass. while waiting for baby.
then she came with alot of her friends. played her psp while she studied her work.
left mac and sent her home. then went for dance[NOT SHOCKING OKAY!].
on my way to bukit batok, stomach pain like !@#%!@#.
must be the 2 cups of ice latte from mac.
had diarreahoe when reached sch. then nvr eat lunch. and i got in growth toe nail [like jia chyi's] .
thru out the dance, condition was crappy. and i landed on my head while doing 'bridge' and my clip hit my head and broke. x(
after dance, went to mac with ais, then went wm walked around and she brought her village fruits. then we sat outside the mrt station and chatted for like 1hr plus. reached home, and crashed. dead beat.

wassup.
jus bathed.
today i nvr go to sch.
why?
cause it's stupid to ask me go sch for like 3 hrs jus to clean the class up=.=
later needa go sch for like that 50 mins to do chem practical. tsk.
ohgosh.

TODAY IS A SPECIAL DAY.
alright, today uhh. damn sucks.
phys so boring. reb keep ignoring me.
a maths, mrsleong went to dunno whr, lucky..no lessons.
then recess and e maths.
then after than needa go what republic poly for visit.
go there, giv us a piece of paper with 5 qns , ask us find our own answers from the booths.
finish the paper liao, then got kinda buffet, ask us to eat. then can go home =.=
fucked up, no lecture no nothing. what crap. waste my time.
then went to find bh, we went to bought things.
lala, then chatted at the bus stop. and :D happened.
okayy, then went home. very happily x)))))))

so pissed. fuckin brother locked the comp for 4 days, nvr tell me why somemore.
fucked up, locked the comp after my exams, during exams nvr lock, dunno what's his prob.
okay, couldnt rmb what i did on wed and thurs.
so i shall jus briefly say bout fri.
met renee at bb, then trained to jurong.
while waiting for the other train, saw reb and jan..so qiao.
then trained tgt to cityhall. while they go orchard.
then buy jeans and went to bugis?
think so. loiter around there. and shit, i saw a bag v.nice but then the handle v.short. aiya which in other words. not practical for a handbag. hais, now dunno want to buy anot.
okayy then went to orchard, met jordan then went to wisma. pei jor go eat while renee go fix her phone. then elaina and ais came.
then walked to cine for no reason, ate at jack's place.
then went to hereen, then went to far east. omg, we roam around til 11pm, damn late sia. and i dint realise at all. i left the hse at 11 am, reach home at 11.30pm
walked the whole day, and seriously when i reach home cnt feel my legs liao.
as for ytd..nvr do anything, jus slog in front of teevee whole day. darn sian.

ohohoh, and im goin for japan. which supposingly should be a joyus occasion. but then like, none of my friends got chosen, and yuai is goin. D;
okayyy, nvm be positive..at least still got junie boss and cute patsy chua. ;D

wah lan today i broke my leg, it died of exhaustion from excessive walking.
went to vivo with mother today. bought what i wanted. and wanted to buy handbag and shoes also. NOT THE LADIES kinda handbag, the unisex kinda handbag. oh and bought shoes, not got it at vivo though.
ta ma de si vivo, so big cnt find a handbag of my liking, even shoes also cnt find. go like 6-7 shoes shop all cnt find. went to everlast, converse and kappa also cnt find sneakers of what i want.
bladdy hell man.
and the clothes, all so same same one la. so ugly still sell so ex.
nvm fri go buy again =D
so into shoppin right now. darn.

HEY yozzx
okayy fkin happy right now.
i jus tabulated my EOY's L1R4
Eng : 56/100 – C5
Emaths : 78/100 – A1
Amaths : 52/100 – C6
CH : 65/100 – B3
Phys : 62/100 – B4
Chem : 56 / 100 – C5
Chi : 44/100 – E8

i dont intend to go to JC anymre, so my L1R4 is 18points. okayy super happy. well i know it's not good, but if u were me you too would be elated. cause midyr my L1R4 was 27. and mind you it is 9 points in diff kayss.
wow. im so happy right now.
mayb for some normal kid it's nth worth celebrating, but if you were a kid whose class position had always been top 3 in class during pri sch to being a sec sch ahlian who had jus passed her overall results at 51/100% to slowly a guai kia who doesnt really givs a damn whom scored 59% when being streamed. and reached a stage whereby her L1R4 is 27, which in reality can go nowhere. til L1R4 reached 18. omg, what a long journey.
alright, enough craps. tata

okayy, today is wonderful..actually not really .
jus befr reachin sch today, ais sms me ask me whr was i. then asked to meet at opp.
meet liao, went into sch tgt, run tgt, sing anthem tgt...sweet times..JK! XD
okayy then went back to class, was thilagam's lesson. got back maths paper and holy crap!
overall scored 78/100. so happy can? although some zuai kia go around showing off but still lose to hello kitty. =.=
thenn wass....erm..Amaths? i guess so. fucked up results. 52/100
so dint giv a damn cause i know cnt find marks liao, so jus read my book.
after recess was chem, another C, 56/100..but nvm good enough for someone who dint study at all.
then was phys, and mr ho already told us that 11 out of 22 ppl in our class fail. and when he came in, he gave a sadder news which is only 9 ppl pass. which meant more than half the class fail.
and i realised, whenever is major exams like MYE/EOY ppl usually fail phys. like fail terribly kind.
okayy, thank god im one of them who passed, and with satisfyin results, 62/100. [pon you kay, jorC]
mayb 62 not high luh, but compared to midyr's 52 is a drastic increase ler. happy enuff.
oh and after that mrTan read our eng marks for eoy overall eng, 57/100 [still pon you kay, jorC]

after sch trained to lavender, make i/c. quite fast. only waited like 15mins.
then trained back and stand til legs damn tired.
oh and i tell you, les is everywhr now. so cool. soo cool.

Sloppy day.

today woke up hell early. at like 7.30? no idea why suddenly woke up for no reason.
so read the biantai book, b.h lent me.
then cooked noodles and watched spider lilies.

it's a hong kong lesbian movie bout this 2 gals who apparantly were childhood lovers but one of them moved house and they kinda lost contact. and the female lead was only 9 yrs old then, shows that age doesnt matters. and they were brought tgt by luck..? like 15 yrs later. and sad things happen blablabla..they got tgt. the end.
storyline abit crappy but not bad.

then went back to sleep at 12 and woke up at 6pm. bath , eat and watch tv.
and now im tired again.

HELLO!
omg jus reached home and hell tired.
befr the movie even started, i was about to dozed off. shopped whole day of cos no energy liao lah.
but anyw, the show not bad, but i think connected is the nicest compared to housebunny and painted skin. OH and im so pissed with my mom.
first she told me, i dress like ahlian. like wtf? u tell me which ahlian wear jacket and pants with shoes and cap? all wear cardigan/tubes + short shorts lah. so pissed luh. elynia jiejie says i wear like hiphop liddat and yet she says i wear like ahlian. punch her in the face man.
second, she cnt stop makin dumb comments during the movie. and i tell you, no one at all talked during the show. so paiseh can. and she talk is like normal voice, which is fkin loud. or else where
do u think my loud voice comes from?
and thirdly, she ran the the toilet at the last 3 mins of the show, then we cnt find her. and dad kinda talked to her on the phone and his talked = shout. and is darn fuckin paiseh lah.
nvm lucky im finally home. thank god thank god..
P.S NVR GO WATCH MOVIE OR EVEN GO OUT WITH THEM AGAIN. x(

my bh so cute. haha.

okayy jus bathed after i reach home.
okayy shall talk bout my journey today.
well, jus now i said i would go out to meet jorT , renee and weishan go town.
and so i did, and went i stepped out of the bladdy hse, it rained=.= HEAVILY.
shats luh. so i ran to thr mrt station and was all drenched.
then trained to bb and ate at BK in WM.

after that renee says wan to cityhall see see the skinnies first. so dropped off and walk to the shops. we walked around, compare the price..see see the type of skinnies and settled in a shop to try. walan, at that shop right, weishan tried 1, i tried 1, renee tried 1. then me and weishan ends up say ''consider first'' then the guy giv attitude say..''aiya, dont wan then dont try lah, waste my time only'' sibei kaobei. kns.

so we then went to another shop, a lady with nicer attitude. then renee damn funny , cut the price til auntie dont wan let me try. say '' srry luh, no need try that price i cnt sell'' so i took the price lo. renee also bought one. oh and i finally bought a wristguard from there, like finally after wanting one for so long.

then trained to far east, see see look look. bought a tie . and walked around. ohoh, and jorT hubby bought the same wristguard as mine. jus that his was double the price as mine , hoho and diff colours. and that weishan uh, damn asshole. nvr buy anything, everything also see see.
anyw we ran into junie,nadia , farah and thilagan. what a coincidence.

then trained back and on the way ran into jone at queenstown. dropped off at CCK to go see cotton on, then went to buy some snacks . and on my way out of LOT 1, guess who i saw? gary..gary ng, the guy that pon sch for 1 whole bladdy term one. he was with his mom and his younger bro, he darn pro luh. dunno what's the wrong with him mann.

and now, my legs are damn tired. bladdy hell, and shats luh. im talkin so like renee can. hais.
later goin out again to watch painted skin with parents. tired man.
and for the whole of nx week cnt see b.h x((((((

urgh found myself on the sofa when i woke up this morning. tmd must hav fell asleep while watchin tv ytd.
and i rmb vaguely that my dad says '' aiya let her sleep thr lo.'' lols.
while my mom tries to wake me up.
okayyy anyw, m goin to town with renee jorT and weishan(big fat perv) .
and i cant believe i agree to go with them. gosh.
oh and b.h's sms bombed, so cnt sms liao. sad :(
miss my b.h x(

i miss yr hand.
i miss yr wide broad smile.
i miss yr comfy shoulder. x_x

Wednesday.

last day of paper, physics P1. quite hard, but nvm luh. suan ler suan ler.
after paper, went to amk meet b.h then we bought tickets to watch "connected"
the show very nice, should watch. funny also.
and hell the cinema, freakin cold can ?
after than went to PS to get my DECENT book =)
then we went back to yishun and eat and lalala homesweethome.

Thursday.

very boring day. got back eng papers, luckily i passed overall . thank god. so worried bout english man.
after that trained to outram park, go see dentist. reach thr then realised im 1hr earlier than the appointment time. damn it, so sat in the clinic and finished my DECENT book .
then went to mrt station, and i was so deep in my thoughts that i jus randomly went to a platform and wait. and ya, i boarded the wrong train =.=
trained all the way til simei then i realised that i boarded the wrong train, cause this friendly lady kept smiling and lookin at me. so was distracted .
tsk wasted 30 mins sia. ends up reached home at around 6.30 when my appointment ended at 4.30. shats luh.

Friday.

got back both CH papers. SUPER UNEXPECTED! i mean i passed my SS?
i stunned for like 1 min when i saw my marks on the visualiser, then i looked again in doubt.
and i went wtf? how can that be? 32/50?
i dint even touch my ss tb at all and i was v.sure that i wrote crap for the last part of the paper which is 13 marks yet i can get L3/7 ?. anyw i B my CH, kinda happy x)
hmm then had 2 Amaths period and mrs leong hadnt finish the papers yet, so asked us to do our own work. so i went to talk to ais. and we talked about the DECENT book's content. HAHa
okok after sch, went to change and wanted to giv hc surprise, but shats she saw. oh well,
trained to yishun, bused to the polyclinic and wait for the checkup and report .
then went to northpoint and eat, ate salmon..tasteless. X_X
after than hc sent me home and here i am blogging.

i would nvr let go of yr hand again.
:) today is special, like no other .

恭喜你

tell me when you fall,
because i will rush down and pick u up.
tell me when u r broken,
because i will buy glue and stick u back piece by piece.
tell me when u r gna tell yr parents,
because i will be there with you and support you.
tell me when u go and get yr O lvl results,
because i will be there to share yr joy or sorrows.
tell me when u need company,
because i will be there to let you know u r nvr alone.
tell me when u feel that i aint caring enough,
because i will change for you.
but baby, i've only got one thing i need to tell you, im in love with u.

today had Emaths P1, it was relatively easy , but i've zero confident luh.
i made careless mistakes and the answers was weird.
but im prayin that i would pass luh .
after that was Phys P1, darn hard. Qn 1 i already dunno how to do.
then the rest of the paper, of course no need to say also know very hard liao lah.
aiya sure fail one lahh. know the formulas also got no use, i dont even know what the qn was askin for luh. i thought my english bad til i cnt understand, but even ais also dunno, so i know not my eng liao lor.

after sch went to PS with ais and elaina, ais went to repair her bloody $2 cover.
then walked around, see see things.
had ice cream and ,
went into this shop, that sells car signs and alot of interesting stuff like sex games. like monopoly kind, but it's very very R21 man.
then went to carrefour and did refugee shoppin, cause ais took so much food like she jus came out from refugee camp. and i tell u, they are mad. they bought this french load nearly 1metre long and we went outside PS and eat there. can u imagine 3 students sitting infront of this man-made waterfall eating sushis, sausages and french loaf ( i dint touch it.) . ironic man.

then we went to the service center to get her phone a $2 cover.
then trained back.
on our way back, they jus ganged up and make fun of me can.
say what i got big curvy abnormal eyes.
then say i got horny face and what retarded face. i tell them chinese new yr i also liddat smile to my relatives , where got horny. then they burst into laughter. NOT FUNNY K.
after that dunno what they do behind me, keep laughin and laughin..ppl keep starin =.=

oh my bro's friend came for mahjong and jus 5 mins ago. his friend came in and was kinda random and asked about how does it feels like being 15. LOLS
bro got funny friends.

that woman should seriously stop calling. it's really annoying to get a call at 11 everynight. ohgosh.

today damn sian can ?
ytd slept at 1am then today darn tired.
ehh today mr tan us our CA marks, complies of all our tests and assignments and it's 15%.
okayy lah not that bad, all Bs except two.

Maths - 63.3
A maths - 62.2
Phys - 69 [ so close..so close. ]
Chem - 66.8
Geog - 52.9 [ extremely disappointing ]
Chinese - 44.7 [ expected xD ]
English - 61.+ [ very unexpected, think MrTan too lenient ]

you said you would give me tuition on my chinese, i've got no worries for chinese O's then =D

after sch went for xtra maths lesson for tmr's Emaths. damn crowded i tell u.
i've been havin tuition there for 3 yrs and nvr seen such a crowd .
okayy the class is full [ class only has 7 seats ], the living room is full [ has got 7 ppl waiting ],
and the most ironic thing is when i stepped out of Mr Tan's hse there's 5 ppl waiting outside.
the house full till they had to wait outside, pathetic right ?
anyw , greatly demoralised luh. i cant do like 5 qns from the paper cher gave can . shyt lahh tmr sure fail liao lah. smr sec 2 work tested also.
let me recap what thilagam wrote.
sum of int angles = (n-2)180
sum of ext angles = 360
sum of one int angles = [(n-2)180] divded by (n)
sum of one ext angles = 360/n
...
mean = avg
mode = the number which is repeated the most times .
median = the middle number in a set of integers.

sucker schh. tomorrow maths paper, today teach mean, mode, median. fucked up, still say is sec 2 work. sec 2 also nvr teach still say taught taught taught. try to push the blame to 2e4 smr, say 2e4 learn befr. yr faeces lah. pfffft.

我哈哈大笑.

i want to be the missing flower from your garden.
i want to wake up in the morning and see your bright smile.
your msg everyday brightens up my day .
you promised to bring me to gay pubs on my 18th bdae, u shall be my tour guide.
but i want you to be my life guide too, guide me through my ups and down and always be there for me .
it's a 43 days wait from now, it's gna be long . but i will wait.