IM HAPPY .
I'VE GOT A FAMILY LER!!
THEY ARE COFFEE AND GREENTEA , my new baby hamsters .
bought them at vivo 2 days ago on 23rd of march .
they are sapphire winter white breed .
damn cute , but green tea bit me ytd =.=
bled smr .
they are my babies from now on and edith is the daddy ^^
haha happy family . okay i sound dumb right now .
but they are utterly cute !!
love them and laogong to the core ~!
hmm, coffee likes ikan bilis and green tea loves nut.

Things are indeed different now . Every thing has an equal and opposite reaction .
Salty water streaming down the cliffs ,
the silence im facing ,
it's so loud it's killing me ,
every little details that i was given hurts so much ,
the mess created ,
must eventually be cleared .
I'm ready to face it , and let it go .
It's like im facing such pain every year with a different occasion/person.
it hurts so very much .
the water cnt stop flowing .
my actions and words are being judged and given its verdict .
i don't know how to face her anymore , really .

If only ...

Breakout concert was fabulous, but what came after that wasnt .
if only i din't go to the garden with her.
if only i dint treat her so cruelly .
if only i hadn't said any of those things to her .
if only i had treat her like a queen .
if only i would be more patient .
if only i had control my temper .
if only i try to understand .
if only i would compromise .
if only she din't said all those things .
if only she din't bring me to the garden .
if only she din't grew so mature .
if only she wasn't so nice .
if only we weren't together .
if only we din't had such beautiful memories .
none of this happened, now we must bear the pain .
Things Will Never Be The Same Again .