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disgustin peeps .
liddat treat animal, nx life they would end up as animal being abused .

If your Lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
if he/she is remorseful, giv a second chance loh .
If you can have a Dream to come true, what would it be?
stop time at exactly 3am, and gaze at the starry sky .
What will your dream wedding to be like?
outdoor, at hawaii x)
Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
not really, jus not confident ,
What's your ideal lover like?
nice sweet carin simple .
Which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone.
How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
it comes naturally mah, LOLS.
If the person you secretly liked is already attached , what would you do?
what can i do ? cry and weep ? LOLS
Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
yah duh .
Is being tagged fun?
i dont find excitement in it .
How do you see yourself in ten years time?
still short ?
Who are currently most important people to you?
friends .
What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
uhhhh.
Would you rather to be a single & rich or married but poor?
Single and rich .
What's the first thing you do every morning?
off my aircon .
Would you give all in a relationship?
nop .
If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
err, depends .
What type of friends do you like?
innocent understandin carin
Do you have a pet?
yea .
What type of friends do you dislike?
selfish greedy schemin

Ghost :
fine, i amend my words . it nvr break in front of people esp. friends . i would only breakdown alone, in my room .
dont think i dunno who u are, cause i only told one about the mask .
things that are joyful were overwhelmed by sad things, that's y im sad -.-

xiexie ni rebecca .

thanks for yr ears ;D

i feel miserable .
ever since u walked out of my life, i've not open up to anyone else .
i used to tell u everything,
now i keep everything in this small shell .
now it has cracked,
all the water flowin out,
unstoppable .
the scar u left for me,
no amount of love and care can fill it up .
u r first best friend,
i no longer hav the guts to confide to others,
it jus dont feel right .
why must u be so nice and great?.. now i cant find one better than u.
i sympathise myself .
i try to make others feel better when they are down, i try to console them .
i cant do that to myself .
everytime i told myself,
at least i still got a family, friends and studies which many dont hav .
but these lies doesnt work anymore,
and my mask is crackin
my cheery wide smiled mask,
the weary sad soul hidin inside,
cryin every now and then holdin on to all the troubles .
i broke down. i hate holidays .

it's the sad season now .
everyone's havin troubles with friends .
many not satisfied with results .
felt like cryin very single sec, i dunno why .
perhaps too stressed .
many i know are so sad at this period of time, world is so cold and cruel .
people are so ugly and hideous .
uglyuglyugly.
cheer up peeps, let go of yr troubles, think of the brighter side .

today was late for school cause of the sickenin blisters by the new shoes .
late by 2 mins, -.-
then wait for mornin assembly to end, superrrrrr long mann .
din run, cause blister .. stand stand for 1 hr ? then mr rosman so good giv me pocky .
everytime late also got tibits to take de, he so good .
but he last day liao so the very very sad, i nvr got his name card . i shant late anymore, no more mr rosman and tibits . x((

lessons end at 1050 then got use the hand campaign, disgustin jorT go throw his cloth at my face . dirty smr sia, yucks .
spent so much time on the whiteboard area .
after that, i made an underwear for ...labell ? whatever the name is, so nice lo the uw .

after sch go gerry's hse put things then go rebecca's hse .
her bed got so many soft toy, i wonder how she squeeze herself at night .
actually wan watch movie, but end up play psp and hp .
i go do this funny cute hairstyle for rebecca, but she take down befr her parents came home . x((
then go use comp and watch tv, 5.3o left .



i read yr jornal everyday, i cant bring myself to forget u, to let u go
dont pin high hopes, higher u hope for the more disappointed u might be
of course u cant bring yrself to hate me, u so kind
the terribly pain that pierce into my heart and conscious when i read ''i cry myself to sleep everynight.''
i know how painful it is, i experienced it
yr misery was brought by me, all bcause of me
i feel so bad and i feel so sad
im not ready to talk to u yet, ive no idea how to face u, how to talk to u
im ashamed
giv me some time
i haven gotten my report book yet, but my position went up by 30 plus in level, so not very disheartened .
get yrself a tutor and dont giv up yr Amaths, seriously
i dont wan u to get bad results
nah, its not my friend, its my friend friend, jus got freaked out .
i will stay happy .

today no lessons, had financial literacy .
super funn, the person also very funny like mr rosman liddat .
sad, mr rosman leavin tmr . sniffs .

i dont get why life had to this complicatin, or why people tends to make it complicated .
jealousy greed competition
so ugly, very very ugly .
y cant they be satisfied with what they hav and be grateful for it ?
y must they ask for more and nvr satisfied ?
y must they be jealous of what other hav and compare themself ?
y make life so miserable when u can enjoy yr short vulnerable life ?

havin all the things you want wont make you happy, people around u does .
one can pursue all the materials he want and neglects people around him, ends up he will only die off miserably with no one at his funeral, no one pityin him . why must one end up liddat ?
the cycle of causes and effect,
be all jealous u wan, be all hypocrite u wan, used her all u wan.. cause you are the one sufferin in the end .
no one wants a hypocrite as friend, no one wants a petty friend, no one wants to be used .
you will be detested .

pains me everytime something so ugly happens , freaks me out everytime .
i dont wna grow up, though i know the world is cold and dark, people are practical and cruel .
but nvr would i thought someone so nice outside can be so despicable inside .
sad sad life .

i chance upon yr words
tears welled up
i nvr would hav thought you would be so nice
petty me
thought everyone is the same
thinkin you would end up hatin me and turn away
u look at it more positively now
makes me relieved
im grateful for a friend like u
though a second time is highly impossibly
but i still would regard u as my friend
u r devoted
u would find someone better than me
and may it last long
be focus on yr studies
i dont wan to be yr burden
lastly
i really appreciate yr exsistence
thank you and truely sorry .

today very fun mann .
A maths, mrs leong nvr come, lucky i nvr bring book .
2 free periods, then some people wan organise class outin/chalet .
then we voted outin and vote on old changi hospital .
cool uhh . but day go, NOT FUN !
then me gerry and rebecca disected jia chyi's frog , funny mannn .
then the legs, eyes all come out .
phy lesson someone so stylo, play psp and got confiscated, too bad.
after school, mom come fetch me to dental, this time i chose pink . i know i know, ewwwww right .
then mom finally got time and energy to bring me buy shoes, SCHOOL SHOES .
I CAN FINALLY THROW AWAY THE UGLY BLACK HOLE-FULL SHOES ! =D
UNDESCRIABLE HAPPINESS!! XDDDDDD
bought from converse, threw my shoes away .
very nice lehh, glossy glossy de, ex mann 100 bucks sia .
and bought a shirt, forty six bucks, i like it alot ^^
come hoe, audi fed-up keep missin . arghhhhhh

today we get to know our positions, im the last half for everything, class + level .
and i get 27 points for L1R4, too stunned, too heartachin to feel anything .

everything is a failure...

relationship ended tragically, painfully .
acadamic scored really really disappointin marks, other than PSLE, this is the 2nd time i felt such stingin pain when i stare at my scores .
friendship, the terrifyin barrier .
kinship, im not close to either .
i hold back my tears.

life is short, and sad for me .
seein your situation reminds me of isabel again and again, it's the exact same reason why our friendship ended, but u r luckier . i know how u feel, i know very well . i wan u to cheer up, live on with a smile, dont let it affect yr studies any further .

ps ahh, this few days like keep scoldin people .

this person always think it's so smart, so arrogant .

compare here compare there .

NOT JORDAN, jordan very good de .

now it's reults like hahaha, seriously lmao man .

i dont study i get abit lower than u, i study u no need even lift yr head liao .

very anxious, wna see what kinda job u would get , mayb one day we bump on the streets and u might only work as a clerk with 2k salary . i will sooooooo lmao off man .

today came home right after school.
today MT played some kinda games , like guessin games quite fun .
then the most dreadful lesson of the day , Chem .
that bloody bitch is fuckin pickin on me lah , fuck her and her desperation .
i lookin at the board tryin to figure out what she jus said, so is rebecca , we werent talkin for the past 2 mins ?
the moment we talk, is about MOLES and then she said what, you two sit tgt also gna be liddat and shift rebecca away WTF !?
we werent even doin anything lah, FUCK IT .

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

this carries on, i would consider transferrin school .
im totally breakin down la .
failure in everything ..

i teared

i fail chem T__________T
like 1st time i fail chem in this 3 years , i guess .
omgomgosh .
section B i nvr do 1 and 1/2 qn = 15 marks fly away .
so saddendin, sosososo devastating.
and that bloogy ms toh still wan rub it in .
ask me hand in the incident report, i did . then she say i nvr write actions, ask me go write.
i write liao she say dont wan 1 -2 sentence, but nth to write liao mah .
she giv me that fuckin threats and unreasonable reasonins again .
ask me write durin checkin of scripts, tell her i wan check , she say no need, check liao also liddat . WTHHH?i doubt she pass NIE luh . fker .
what, she can dont key in my SA marks, dont key lor, i already failed .
and then say wan hand me over to Ms chua .
i would be elated if ms chua handle it .
that ms toh fuckin bias lah, jia chyi take wallet, nth happen to him , i scold vulgarity i incident report .
wtf mann.
like someone who steals and someone who murder .
no sense of urgency . hate her luh .

devastated. upset. disappounting. sad. heartaching. demoralised. agony.

today got back few exam papers .
hais , the vocabs says it all .
A.maths i jus passed by 1.5 marks ? sooooooo saddenin .
english i failed by overall 7.5? made me cry mna, i've nvr failed so badly .. extremely devastated .
suprisingly i passed my physics, JUS passed .. k lah quite good .
chinese jus as expected , fail by hmm .. 6 marks ? i dont really care .
and geo, like half more mark then A2 -.- wtf .
p.s gerry dont sad kay, still got end of year, sure can de .=)

after school went to rebecca hse, then wan watch dvds , no sound..so nvr watch .
then gerry go open like hell lots of linkin park vid from youtube , then watch watch watch til like 6?
very late sia, so went home .
i bought like 7 clorets and a 1.5 green tea, cause very sad luh my results so disappointin so want to spend all my money away .this MYE sucks, big time .

i cant get over it, when i kept tellin people..dont sad luh still got EOY and CA can pull up yr SA de . damn shyt

this guy he abuse his dog and exhibit as art , he should be jailed .

go to the link and see, then sign the petition and help the dog .

http://www.hoax-slayer.com/starving-dog-art.shtml