ytd went for my b'dae celebration with darling .
the best b'dae ever!
mayb because i nvr had a celebration for bdae since 6 bah.
but i get to eat my 1st ice cream cake ;DDD damn nice and shiok
then the MOF food is perfectly well for my standard.
the egg sauce with seafood is superb man.

darling gave me stupid surprise leave me to go bugis alone.
but the card very sweet.
it's ''i love you'' in all the languages , with my photo in it.
and we watch movie after that cause too much time .

i love her so much . thank you darling .

i know i should be studying, i know that i will be sitting in the hall in one month's time being unprepared. i know i will fail a couple of subjects .
and i know i will end up in an undesirable institute. but im not feeling scared , im not feeling worried. im not trying, even though deep down i want to study.
no one's here to push me anymore .
no one's here to nag at me , to see me through my beautiful life .
i've got no one to make proud of anymore .
every birthday i will ask for things that i want , ipod , watch, bag , jacket...
but this year i jus wan mummy .
i wan someone to be here for me everytime .
i dont want to be lonely .