heard of causes and effects?
like retribution of yr sins .
sometimes i think theres nth to sympathise about, it's all part of the cycle .
since like 8 yrs old, always friend here friend there, dont friend u, dont friend her .
it's always the word 'FRIENDS'
now i only want my world to revolve around studies and my baby .
i dunno who to trust u know, some people can be so good to u this sec, and the nx moment the person can giv u cold icy shoulders .
so unpredictable, so i dont want to go predict anymore. i will jus follow my heart.

u caused my everyday to be so lifeless and moody .
though the pain werent as hurtin as the one isabell gav me , but u r afterall still my friend .
this happens everytime , pains me .
when i reached home, i suddenly thought of this scene from a drama series .

alice : nobody likes choosin sides .

bette : but u do it so well .

i dont really care who u hang out with, those are yr friends , yr life .
but u r my friend, part of my life .
mayb to u it's jus a trival matter or u dont even know the damage u r causin to me .
but i've stopped interractin with people , because of u .
forget it, it's predestinied.

sorry T_T
im serious about studyin. nth wrong with u or me .
heartaches when i read yr post that u cried til yr eyes bulged out .
i wan u to focus on studies first. me also luh.
and 300 hrs to..?
i also got alot of things to tell u.
dont feel sad liao kays, isly.
today 3rd week, i very happy .
[yesterday and today]
went to study with tong en and aishah.
both days also do maths.
yesterday tongen ask me go yewtee mac to teach them maths, then went til night 10pm. so late .
feel very guilty cause nvr go out with u then last min went out with them.
but at least aishsh learnt smth .
today went for tuition, 3 hrs do last yr EYO paper.
damn waste my time .
then go kfc find them, in the end they got nth to ask me =.=
...
goin to ask me dad to renew my phone plan then can change mobile .
and im goin ask my bro's gf to get me a hi-card then after exams can sms limitlessly liao .
i wan u to be happy kay, imyvm .
yr results not good dont talk to me hor .

[thusday]
sch soso lorh. only know that ms toh like always pick on me luh. jc personal att her she also nth , i nvr say anything about her, also kena scolded . piang .
after sch ruch to tution, reached there at 4.20pm , duration : 1hr30mins .
from 4.20 - 5.20 pm i sit there like idiot starin into space doin ABSOLUTLY NOTHIN. jus sit there and stare , cause teacher nvr assign work for me . he walk to student A. then approach student B then C . goes back to A , then C then B ...and the cycle goes on. goes to every student in the room accept me.fk, then finally he somehow noticed me, then giv me 5 qns to do..finish go home.
waste my tuition fees sia .
[friday]
school ends early cause of speech day, stay back in sch and talk and eat til 2.
then very very very bored so me, rebecca and thwe ni went to gerry's house.
when i first step in, i slipped and fall..really super slippery luh . then play scrabble and jenga(?)..then we left cause me and thwe ni are student audience .
reach there early , go up sit there til 4.3o then they start the thing .
after that watch the openin of the eco pond live in the hall, before it starts we waited for like 3o mins .
and within that interval, jiayi very entertainin..he say wan to pull the frog's(toy keychain) hands out. then we try pullin .. i wont come out so we use scissors to cut it's hands open and cut open it's mouth also. then he sadist sia go staple back the openin after than remove the staple and start pullin all the wool out. remove all the wool then stuff it back in again..the whole process damn funny..cnt stop laughin, sadistic sia .
performance only started at lik 6.50(?) . listen to like 2 hrs of speech sian like hell . finally the performance start..i cnt see cause in front got 2 big head guy from 2e5..they big head nvm, they dont appreciate it at all, keep talkin non stop talk talk talk then jerk here jerk there. block my view and corrupt the music . bloody idiots .
go west mall find someone, so cute sia her sis. hahaha

::i reflect the way u treat me, what u get from me was what i once received from u::



if u r down, im willin to lend u my shoulders .
if u are blind, im willin to be yr eyes .
if u are paralysed, im willin to take care of u . if u were to be chased out, im willin to lend u my roof .
if u were to abandon, i will be the first to adopt u .
this is my promise to u .

Who is your best friend?
- alot leh . later u come find me i tell u.
Who do you like?
- not u . =P
Who bought you the clothes your wearing?
- mummy .
Who is at your house?
- mummy, doggy .
Who loves you?
- alot leh .
Who said hey to you today?
- cannot rmb .
Who are you talking to right now?
- gerry and elsie .
Who was your ex-boy/girlfriend?
- KPO.
What are you wearing?
- uniform .
What do your teeth look like?
- tonnes of metal .
What are you doing an hour ago?
- eatin .
What is your deepest secret?
- you said deepest secret, so it shall remain as a secret.
What are you doing tomorrow?
- schooling.
What is your boy/girlfriend's middlename?
- think im gonna fall for that ?
What is in this for you?
- what talkin u.
What is your favorite thing(s) to do?
- sleep .
What are you sitting on?
- chair lah then what ? shyt ?
Where are you at right now?
- in front of the comp doin this super dumb survey.
Where were you at at 12 noon today?
- home .
Where is your toothbrush at?
- my toilet .
Where do you sleep?
- my bed .
Where do you live?
- somewhr in singapore .
Where were you at at 7pm yesterday?
- on train .
Where is your boy/girlfriend?
- i dunno leh , mayb fell into the toilet liao .
Where are your parents?
- one workin one sleepin .
Where did you put your bookbag?
- floor .
Where do you keep your socks?
- wardrobe
When was your first kiss?
- last yr .
When are you getting a job?
- when im free.
When will you grow up?
- nvr .
When are you going to call your friend?
- when i feel like it .
When did you get home last night?
- 7++pm
When DID you graduate?
- 3yrs ago from unity pri .
When are you going to stop takingsurveys?
-when i have something else better to do.
When was the last time you had a fruitsmoothie?
- last yr .
When are you getting married?
- 50 yrs down the road .
Why are you taking this?
- nth better to do .
Why are you weird?
- because im not normal .
Why are you wearing what your wearingright now?
- cause, naked is against the law .
Why don't you have friends?
- did i say i hav no friends ?
Why can't you get a boy/girlfriend?
- why must ?
Why do you live where your at?
- cause my parents live there .
How do you fix your hair?
- i tie them .
How are the kids?
- i dont have kids.
How many hours do you spend on thecomputer?
- many hours .
How many TV shows do you watch?
- you want me to count? LOL
How did you find this survey?
- utterly LAME.
How, do you like it so far?
- i dont like it .
How often do you say I love you?
- once a year .

i dont want u to apologise .
takes 2 hands to clap, let nature take its course, dont hav to purposely plan it .
if u think u r a failure, so am i.
it involves 2 person, so dont push all the blame to yrself i will angry de .
and im sorry for my arm , promise that i would treasure myself, dont sad ler..would heal very fast de .

sorry i shook yr arm, dint know it was injuried. dui bu qi .

TODAY

woke up super early sia. 8.3o auto wake up, cause dunno who go off my aircon then nvr on fan. super hot then wake up .
watch tv, bathed, eat then went out with elaine.
she met hc, then she left .
trained to dhoby ghaut then bused to national stadium, waited for sw and her friends .
then watched some schools' band performance. some quite nice some abit boring .
then left earlier , waited for half and hour for the bus ? then bused to ehh kallang?
thru out the train journey, sw super funny, laughed til wan die liao.
thanks for sendin me back .

I love you {English}

Wo ai ni, {Mandarin}

Ti Amo, {Italian}

Ek is lief vir jou, {Afrikaans}

Te dua, {Albanian}

Afekrishalehou, {Amharic}

Ohiboke, {Arabic}

Yes kez si'rumem, {Armenian}

Maite zaitut, {Basque}

Ami tomake bahlobashi, {Bengali}

Volim te, {Bosnian/Croatian}

Obicham te, {Bulgarian}

T'estimo, {Catalan}

Mi aime jou, {Creole}

Miluji tev, {Czech}

Jeg elsker dig, {Danish}

Ik hou van je, {Dutch}

Mi amas vin, {Esperanto}

Mina armastan sind, {Estonian}

Tora dost daram, {Farsi}

Iniibig kita, {Filipino}

(Mä) rakastan sua, {Finnish}

Je t'aime, {French}

Ik hald fan dei, {Frisian}

Querote, {Galician}

Ich liebe dich, {German}

S'ayapo, {Greek}

Hoon tane pyar karoochhoon! tane chaahuN chhuN, {Gujarati}

Aloha wau ia 'oe, {Hawaiian}

Anee ohevet otakh, {Hebrew}

Mai tumase pyar karata hun, {Hindi}

Szeretlek, {Hungarian}

Eg elska thig, {Icelandic}

Saya cinta padamu, {Indonesian}

t'a gr'a agam dhuit, {Irish}

Kimi o ai shiteru, {Japanese}

Dangsinul saranghee yo, {Korean}

Es tevi milu, {Latvian}

As tave myliu, {Lithuanian}

Saya cintamu, {Malaysian}

Yokwe Yuk, {Marshallese}

Jeg elsker deg, {Norwegian}

Kocham ciebie, {Polish}

Eu te amo, {Portuguese}

Te iubesc, {Romanian}

Ya tyebya lyublyu, {Russian}

twayi snihyaam, {Sanskrit}

Volim te, {Serbian}

Kiyahurata, {Sesotho}

Lubim ta, {Slovak}

Ljubim te, {Slovenian}

Nakupenda, {Swahili}

Jag älskar dig, {Swedish}

Mahal kita, {Tagalog}

Chan rug khun, {Thai}

Seni seviyorum, {Turkish}

Ya tebe kokhayu, {Ukrainian}

Main tumse muhabbat karta hoon, {Urdu}

Anh yeu em, {Vietnamese}

Rwy'n dy garu di {Welsh}

Kh'hob dikh lib, {Yiddish}

Ngiyakuthanda. {Zulu}

how u feel towards me is how i feel towards u .

left house a little earlier today, then that stupid train took 10 mins to arrive makin me nearly late .

lucky today rain or else i really late , it rained which means i was drenched .

totally drenched, inside out .. then i foresee today would rain and brought class tee . and it really did, so went to changed when reached school .

assembly time, shiver like wth sia super cold .

mt 2periods ; go thru some cheng yu and played cheng yu yi tiao long game which means is a verb game . stunned by bryan sia, his chinese is super good luh dunno why he in this class .

e maths 2periods; the thilagam like PMS, come in started scoldin then insult us, sayin it's either she is stupid or we are stupid if we are so is she ._. smr say she feel ashamed teachin us. 1 period used for lecturin ? then no need greet her straight away let us sit down, so lame luh .

phy singleperiod ; kept lookin at watch, time seems to be crawlin, finally ended .. for sure im gna fail MYE and EOY for phys mann .

after recess was english, damn fun sia .

was divided into 5 groups

then had to answer some kinda olympics question and our group got the highest score cause ,

wrong ans = -1

correct ans = 1

we nvr had any marks deducted .

then played monopoly kinda olympic game , same thing happened..our group nvr deduct a single mark whereas others had at least -3 point ?

they say cause i wearin class tee then is red therefore got the luck , jor C go imitate me wear the shirt over but still got marks deducted . damn funny sia .

thwe ni come thank me for wearin red shirt LOLS!

after school stayed back awhile and play arm wrestlin with the guys and do pushs up and punchin . jc, alex and that stupid lousy aimer kevinL punch my arm, now got bruise liao ler .

zilah play fist punchin game with me then she got cut by my nails and i got a bruise . she ask me go cut my nail then play with her again , siaozharbo.

after that talk talk then went home .

Starting time 4.2opm





Name


regine lim


Sister/s


o


Brother/s


2


Height


152cm [hell short]


Favourite number


dont hav one


Favourite drink


green tea.


Favourite month


sep


Have you ever....





Gone vegetarian?


for a day?..then yes


Bungee jumped?


nop.


Been in a police car?


nop.


Been on a plane?


yeap.


Came close to dying?


yes, serious


Been in a sauna?


yeap.


Fallen asleep in school?


yea.


Cried in school?


yea, when u get scolded.


Fell off your chair?


yeap.


Saved e-mails?


yeap.


What Is...The colour of your bedroom?


pink.


Right beside you?


no one


The last thing you ate?


chicken and rice , not chicken rice .


Ever Had...Chicken pox?


yeap.


Stitches?


nop.


Do You...Like picnics?


not really .


Like school?


not really .


Like filling these out?


i guess so .


Who...Was the last person that called you?


gerry .


Was the last person you danced with?


ermm..for fun ? aishah.


Makes you smile?


*secret*


Did you last yell at?


cannot remember , anyw i yell everyday .


Final Questions...


What are u listening to?


typing sound.


Hated someone in your family?



my mum loh.


Where do you want to get married?


new york / los angelas .


Are you a good driver?


better than u r .


Diamonds or pearls?


shit .


Are you oldest?


nop.


Indoors or outdoors?


indoors .


Today Did You...Take a nap?


nop .


Sing?


ermm not really .


Miss someone?


yeap .


Last Person Who...


You lied in bed with


let me think , ... too long ago , cannot remember ler .


Saw you cry


elsie, jordant,gerry..and a few more .


Made you cry


chee fong that stupid monkey .


Been...In a fight with your pet?


fight with a pet ? it cannot even withstand one blow from me -.-


To Mexico, Canada or Africa?


canada :D


Random...


What book are you reading right now?


i dont read .


Future kids names?


girl- nicole


boy- only want baby girls. :/


What's under your bed?


a box of bag, badminton racket, some books .


Favorite sport to watch?


netball, captainball, volleyball, tennis .


Favorite location?


my room .


Have any Piercing/Tattoos?


3 on right ear, 1 on the left .


What are you most afraid of right now?


failin EOY .


Who do you really love?


she knows .


Do you have a job?


nop .


Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?


yes of course.


Are you lonely right now?


a little


Have you ever played strip poker?


what's strip poker?


What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?


their voice. i dont really notice them though


Time finished: 9.32pm

today is one of those not so fun day..mayb im not in the mood ?

mr tan ordered pizza for us, FINALLY..

and i've gotten my ipod back.thank god .

then i took bus to clementi. and take train back to yewtee.

thru out the bus journey i thought for very very long .

.

.

.

i know i am not too sensative. i know i can tolerate it as long as it's not goin overboard.

but i dont make a single shit sound doesnt mean that im dead.

what am i to u.. a steppin stone to know my friends ?

i feel so very used.., this is the first time i had this feelin ya know .

i've thought thru for weeks or perhaps a month.

and i only hav a word to describe u. hypocrite.

what the fuck person are you..cold blooded ?

used me then throw me aside then hav fun with yr new friends ?

u want to know them, so be it..do you hav to be this cold and blunt towards me?

i came into this school with a psychology barrier, i locked myself in my own world , stayin away from the outside world, not trustin in people..because i dont want to get hurt again.

u befriended me, shrink the barrier and eventually removed it.i trusted u with all my heart and this is what im to u ? ..barely a pawn ?

fuck shit . and god damn u . u dont fuckin giv me the crocodile tears and sympathy. i swear that i've seen thru u and i felt damn disgusted .

time and time u say u r sorry..either u r not..or u jus wont learn yr mistakes u jus wont change.

u've won all the trust u need from people, all the attention that u would ever need.

u can tell people that u dunno anything, dunno that yr 'jokes' are hurtin me and that u dint gave me a cold shoulder .

whatever. i dont need people to believe me, to stand up or support me. so save yr breathe in explanation, save yr excuses to others .

when u first entered my life,

u r just like all my other friends, nth extrodinary.

i nvr specially thought of u, in fact u werent in my mind at any moment unless i was talkin to u.

but now u r everything in my mind, whatever im doin all i see is u.

damn i jus cant get u out,

but i like the feel..it's the source of my smile and joy.