fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.

get me a toilet bowl, let me shit my troubles out.

thank you Rachael, and everyone else whom showed concern .
thank you for those who cared, worried and prayed for me and my mom .
it's great to know there's a whole lot of friends with you at hard times .

thank you Edith, for trying to cheer me up everyday. trying to make everything right. always being there for me.


it's heart-warming and at the same time heart-breaking.
recovering yet short lifespan.
i can't fulfil my duties as a daughter.
i don't get to give her a good life.
she don't get to see me graduate, get a job and settle down .
i said before, i wanted to live in a 5-room apartment.
1 room for me and my partner,
2 for my kids,
and one for her.
there shall be a dressing desk, bed, plasma tv and wardrobe in her room .
i said before, i wanted to bring her to travel around the world once i've got the money.
i said i wanted to bring her to japan when i came back from japan school trip.
life's been hard on her.

if being strong is having to go through all this.
i rather be a weakling.
if being filial have to be shown in this manner.
i rather be a unfilial daughter.
if i can exchange my life for hers.
i would.
if i can extend her life with mine.
i would.
god is fair.
i was given something precious and dearly, my gf.
i am now being deprive of another dearly person, my mother.

overslept. no sch.
watch show.
go. hosp. mom.
bedridden. blur.
heartache. teared.
brain tumour. attacked brain.
cnt think. cnt move properly.
teared several times.
home.
she came.

went for tuition in the afternoon.
damn unproductive man.
met laopo in the late afternoon for movay.
she's super dashing , suave , cool and attractive , i tell u.
seriously man. i was stunned to see her . she's not just shuai. damn chio also.
xD
okok stop praising liao.
watched slumpdog millionaire, very very nice.
then makan at errrr..koblablabla, forget the name liao. but it's very nice.
a jap restaurant at the basement of cine.
then laopo bought cheese cake from gloria jeans or smth close to this name .
she sent me home ;)

Chef of the day !

1st month prezzie for dardar!

Love with a smiley face.

E for Edith!

Small Cookays~

NehNeh Cookay before baking ><

NehNeh Cookay after baking =P


As the pictures had done all the talking, i shall jus brief about what happened.

3 days later will be our 1st month. as a result i went to gerry's hse to bake cookies.

and yes , Regine Bakes.

it turn out to be fabulous! damn nice man. of cos without gerry's help it wont be done.

after baking, bring to orchard find darling.

wah, her shock face damn funnay i tell u. super kawaii.

LMAO!

my 1st bake is for her.
weeee~

sitting here for 90 minutes. observing the movements of beings as the time ticks off.
sips of coffee. stretching from long hours of sitting.
yawning from lack of energy consumption and rest.
watching you wink as u past by.
holding my bladder as i drink more and more water.
17% of battery left on my laptop.
love you so much.

people, my temporary no. is 98945164. do not delete my old no. (97577948), it will be in use in 1 month's time.

hmm ytd was sports heat and i dint't run. cause i was reluctant to run and was weak.
after sports heat went to mac and makan.
no phone cnt contact dardar T.T
ah nvm later go buy hi card.
sorry dardar, ytd fell asleep. dunno whether u got call anot but sorry x(
was really tied, that's why
nonetheless i still love you alot alot .

okay i know i very long never update already, so here i am blogging.
my phone jus got confiscated by mr aw along with ais's phone.
managed to borrow a phone from my brother. needa buy hi card next .
jus want to tell u guys dont sms me for 1 month.
p.s to myself.
monday 9.30-10.30 [eng]
tuesday 9.30-10.30 [ss]
1.12 [eng oral]
wednesday 9.30-? [dance]
thursday 11-12 [geog]

you ah..silly.
i will never let you go.
i will never stop loving you.
nothing comes before you, your sms is my trace of smile not interruption.
you are everything i can ask for.
i love who you are and everything of yours.
you are most suitable for me.
even when im doing my work, mysteriously i will start drawing you name.
guess how many of your name is on my papers?
clear your outbox and start sending me all that you can offer.
im everywhr in your heart. and you are everywhr in my heart and mind.

Sat.
had stupid very unproductive tuition.
then went to suntec with te.
dardar bring us to browhaus, te and me had our brows done.
and hell was everyone right, threading is torturous x.x
te left, back to toyroom.
makan, then went to esplanade. ROFL.
damn funny .

Sun.
sucky brother was 3 hrs late for my tuition.
drag til 1.30. zzz.
went down to raffles to check some things. also bought a choco bunny for dardar.
head down to suntec.
as usual blablabla.
esplanade again. got some kinda funny bites, legs very itchy.
home sweet home.

when i look into the sky that was glittering with stars.
i felt lost.
the fear of losing you, dashed up to my head.
the fact that mummy will be gone, ring inside me.
the ultimate destroyer of losing both mummy and you made me teared.
looking at you sleeping soundly on my shoulder, made me wonder how long can we last.
i dare not think of the future for fear of the worst.
i dare not give in my 100% for fear of getting hurt.
i dont want to lose you.
losing mummy is enough.
let me hug u tight forever, im really scared.