it's been 3 yrs since i had this feeling. 3 yrs.
loss of appetite, insomnia, totally lost.
i've nvr felt so lost for ages.
i know what i want. and i know i wouldn't get it. and i shouldn't.
for the 2nd time in my life i forsake food and sleep. because these are no longer the things that keep me going.
it's incredible because it has only been a day.