I'm not Normal.

2010-05-13T22:22:00.002+08:00

Dear GreenTea,

I am really sad that i lost you .
bad things just happen in a row .
i really love you, i do.
although i crippled u, i didn't mean it .
i've been trying to make up for it .
my tears for u are true . i hope that u will rest in peace .
though u did not enjoy yr stay here , on earth . i hope u will have a nice one up there .
maybe if i didn't accidentally crippled you that time, none of this would have happen .
i love you baby.
you will always be in my heart , loves .

maybe this is a bad omen .

2010-05-09T04:02:00.002+08:00

up til this point, life sucks.
everyone and everything is like super screwed up now.
all so wet blanket; kena aeroplane.
trainings are super tiring and taking up time.
lotsa hmk, havent even touch a single.
everyone is fighting over money.
it's week 4 nx week. super fast.
common test coming soon and i felt that i've not learnt a single shit since sch started .
feeling duper pressurize right now.
and i saw something to add on to my misery.
i never thought i would feel this way, it's just not right .

FuckTheseShit.

2010-04-25T04:02:00.003+08:00

Didn't see baby for a week, finally saw her today. miss her so much .
she came over to my hse, we play awhile and slept .
woke up, ernie asked us to go tome ca (L pub).
pretty rushed , we ate and headed down to cheenatown .

when i first stepped into the place, i was like wow, everyone there is L. okay abit redundant =.=
very cozy and comfy place. but rather small lar .
bought beer , played fist games . drank finish everything .
and the crowd starts to buzz in .
well, all are pretty friendly . got one super hot woman.
she's like so sad , so lonely . dying for love. like looking everywhr and shooting electricity .
had lotsa fun there . crazy ppl . damn fun .
then irene ng came and started singing hokkien songs, LMAO.
cabbed home at 3+ and im gna sleep nw. sooooo tiredddd .
ciaos~

2010-04-11T23:31:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night, was actually quite pissed cause thought we not going to drink alr.
then buay tahan, ask her out , head down to sengkang.
ate , slack around.
she was so sick, haha.. after some Vit C, she was like poepye with spinach.
then we left at 11+ , head down to clarke quay.
went to Clinic as planned , had Sex on the drip . Alcohol in a bloodpack, frigging koooollll.
ex though, really ex.
like 50 for 1 blood pack ? pour out i think only 2 glass .
but okay lar had fun, and someone had her jealousy . HEHEEH XD

went to had pizza at veraz or smth liddat .
damn Deliiiciouss~
Cheap smr.. hehehe ^.^
Cabbed home at 3+ , slept at 4.
very unforgettable ! :)

OHOHOH!
and i needa buy slippers, shoes, leather jacket, watch and bear bear !!!
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
Donate to RegineFoundation now .

2010-03-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

IM HAPPY .
I'VE GOT A FAMILY LER!!
THEY ARE COFFEE AND GREENTEA , my new baby hamsters .
bought them at vivo 2 days ago on 23rd of march .
they are sapphire winter white breed .
damn cute , but green tea bit me ytd =.=
bled smr .
they are my babies from now on and edith is the daddy ^^
haha happy family . okay i sound dumb right now .
but they are utterly cute !!
love them and laogong to the core ~!
hmm, coffee likes ikan bilis and green tea loves nut.

2010-03-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

Things are indeed different now . Every thing has an equal and opposite reaction .
Salty water streaming down the cliffs ,
the silence im facing ,
it's so loud it's killing me ,
every little details that i was given hurts so much ,
the mess created ,
must eventually be cleared .
I'm ready to face it , and let it go .
It's like im facing such pain every year with a different occasion/person.
it hurts so very much .
the water cnt stop flowing .
my actions and words are being judged and given its verdict .
i don't know how to face her anymore , really .

If only ...

2010-03-15T09:59:00.003+08:00

Breakout concert was fabulous, but what came after that wasnt .
if only i din't go to the garden with her.
if only i dint treat her so cruelly .
if only i hadn't said any of those things to her .
if only i had treat her like a queen .
if only i would be more patient .
if only i had control my temper .
if only i try to understand .
if only i would compromise .
if only she din't said all those things .
if only she din't bring me to the garden .
if only she din't grew so mature .
if only she wasn't so nice .
if only we weren't together .
if only we din't had such beautiful memories .
none of this happened, now we must bear the pain .
Things Will Never Be The Same Again .

2010-02-12T12:48:00.003+08:00

yesterday went out with baby to celebrate valentines day .
she was so sweet ! she prepared so many gifts for me and also made a 7 mins long video.
i watch the video til my tears drain from my eyes , it was so touching and sweet .
my gf sure sweeter than yrs , and im going to be diabetic . but i like ;DDDD
after that we went to kuinshinbo for buffet , wanted to catch the lunch express but we were too late .
we reached there 30 mins before they close their shop to prepare for dinner .
i was so disappointed , =((((
then we eat and went for dinner, 72 something . a hong kong movie about revolution .
the movie was quite hilarious , and the cinema was very empty. all to our self. hehehe
after that went for kuinshinbo dinner , so ex one person 40++
but go alaskan snow crab!!!! NICEEE!!!
but we went there with a half full stomach , what a pity lar. then i dint eat much soft shell crab . sob sob.
took a few pics ytd . not a lot.
and we dint made it to dino park, cause we nvr plan out timing properly.
baby was quite disappointed .
nvm, we shall go nx fri before it closes.
i shall upload the pics next time . im in office now . muahahahah.
i love my baby alot alot alot alot alot . bleah xD

2009-11-25T01:13:00.002+08:00

YEah~

I finally hack into ur account..

whippy...

Darling, must take care of urself and drink ton of water(green tea is just a sweet drink, k?)

I MISS U....

Remember to read my letters...

My princess...

I luv u~

2009-10-23T00:37:00.001+08:00

happy 8th month .
thanks for the prezzies .
svr th lst fw mmnts bfr t's t lt.

2009-09-27T10:43:00.002+08:00

ytd went for my b'dae celebration with darling .
the best b'dae ever!
mayb because i nvr had a celebration for bdae since 6 bah.
but i get to eat my 1st ice cream cake ;DDD damn nice and shiok
then the MOF food is perfectly well for my standard.
the egg sauce with seafood is superb man.

darling gave me stupid surprise leave me to go bugis alone.
but the card very sweet.
it's ''i love you'' in all the languages , with my photo in it.
and we watch movie after that cause too much time .

i love her so much . thank you darling .

2009-09-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

i know i should be studying, i know that i will be sitting in the hall in one month's time being unprepared. i know i will fail a couple of subjects .
and i know i will end up in an undesirable institute. but im not feeling scared , im not feeling worried. im not trying, even though deep down i want to study.
no one's here to push me anymore .
no one's here to nag at me , to see me through my beautiful life .
i've got no one to make proud of anymore .
every birthday i will ask for things that i want , ipod , watch, bag , jacket...
but this year i jus wan mummy .
i wan someone to be here for me everytime .
i dont want to be lonely .

2009-08-18T17:38:00.002+08:00

hehehe, very long nvr update ler .
ytd just bought out couple rings ;DDDD
damnnn happy , look like engagement rings though .
but very nice , i love it .
there's 9 crystals on the inner side of the rings .
it has the meaning of 9 stones being hidden away, ...which stands for chang jiu .. chang chang jiu jiu .
you wish to here the story behind it, must visit edith's blog, pic also at edith's blog .
bleah, love her to death . muacks!

2009-07-16T09:19:00.001+08:00

Hilary Duff - Stranger

Nobody believes me when I tell them that you're out of your mind.
Nobody believes me when I tell them that there's so much you hide.
You treat me like a queen when we go out,
wanna show everyone what our love's about.
All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd,
But when no ones around;

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?
You made yourself look perfect in everyway,
So when this goes down, I'm the one that will be blamed.
Your plan is working so you can just walk away,
Baby your secret's safe.

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

Such a long way back, from this place we arrived.
When I think of all the time I've wasted, I could cry..

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

Then they would see a stranger too..

Then they would see a stranger too...

2009-07-13T20:39:00.002+08:00

i did the craziest thing ytd.
went into a cd shop, was playing some classical music involving violin and piano.
found it very nice, next song was Mr lawrence.
next instant, i swipe my card to buy that $27.90 classical disc when i always listen pop and rock.
LMAO.
watched transformers and ice age.
transformer - boom bang til had headache. but quite nice and touching . $200 million graphics. woah my ass off .
ice age - very funny and cute . worth watching, but sadly i didnt caught the 3D version. nvm.
there's another cartoon called cloudy meatball, somewhat liddat.
it's 3D too, gna watch that ;D

2009-07-05T13:57:00.003+08:00

had haircut on wed with laopo.
she had her long hair cut short and mine is short hair cut even shorter.
now i look like a boy lar, everywhr i go ppl call me ah beng or butch.
i practically shock everyone who have seen my hair la.
friday night laopo stayed over at my hse after her clubbing. super high .
sat morning had breakfast at the food court below my hse.
then go toyroom.
sat night , dad fetch us home. and she initially wanted to stay over but then she changed her mind cause she needed to practise piano.
i also dunno why i was so upset and heartaching .
cried like fuck for dunno what reason also, then i cnt tahan .
asked laopo cabbed down at 12 am.
after that okay ler, then we sleep sleep.
if she didnt come i wouldnt be able to sleep at all lar.
i've got the best gf in the world, tell me, who in the world will rush down at 12 am immediately upon a call. only my gf and in movies it happens.
i love her to the core.
now slogging at toyroom.

2009-06-23T03:31:00.002+08:00

time flies.
Four Months already.
i feel that i cannot find anyone else better than you are because you are just perfect for me.
only you can tolerate my bullcrap.
and only i can have you.
120 days with you yet i dont feel dull and bored.
but loving you more from day to day.
20 ice creams more to go!

2009-06-13T21:57:00.003+08:00

well well well.. v.long nvr blog ler .
let's start from thurs, cause i got a gift on that day ;D

went to sch for chem remedial, did arnd exercise then went to mac. eat and laugh.
then went home, dar came.
she bought me a book ! Yakuza Moon, this book talks about the life of this girl whose father is a yakuza. and it's super nice i tell u! i love it . xD

Friday.

woke up at 8, went out.
train to bedok while reading yakuza moon, then met edith and her friend.
headed to east coast park, wanting to cycle. but ends up we play by the sea, cause weather too hot to cycle.
we open 2 coconuts ;DDDDDD
and we tried some, very nice i tell u.
spent like 5 mins using a wooden rod to hit to coconut got crack then peel open the husk and crack the hard shell inside.
1st coconut: sweet
2nd coconut : sour
after that, edith and i headed back to my hse, showered.
then went to watch Ghost of Girlfriends Past; rating 4/5
it's worth watching. seriously.

Today
laopo went to msia ler T.T
so lonely at tuition lar, no one to sms. then sat thr for nearly 4 hrs doing differciation.
IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS!
cnt take it man, feel like giving up A maths ler .
was so bored jus now, i built a green tea pyramid with 32 cans of green tea. hehe . im heading towards guiness world record. support me!
tmr laopo coming back ler ;D

Camp with Girlfriend

2009-06-08T08:39:00.003+08:00

dardar stayed over on friday at my hse.
i cooked pasta and cambelle for her ;D
first time cooking for anyone other than my mom.
then went to ZZzZz

woke up, we had cake and ham for breakfast.
then headed to sengkang ( bro's place ) to put our bags down.
went to sentosa after that, found jac and others. then we swam, played ball and buried dardar in the sand ;D
pongpong and went to ajisan for dinner.
played forfeit games, super fun..

homed, slept.
had one whole chicken and noodles for breakfast.
then we dillydally thr til 5pm and left. went to causeway had kfc. and homed.
reached home and i fell asleep.

love the 'camp'. bleah.

2009-06-04T22:30:00.002+08:00

You were born on 29 September 1993, Wednesday.

POSITIVE : Good in relationship, know how to appreciate people around her. Not selfish. Always put others instead of herself. Open minded. In finance, good at making money. Love at first sight, and ready to sacrifice everything for love. Sexually speaking, she's good and romantic.

NEGATIVE : Revengeful. If someone hurt her, she'll return the favor badly. Bad at keeping secret, not a good apprentice. Her decision aren't balance, lack in experience. Stubborn, not easily trust on others. Only certain people know how to treat her. Bad at spending money.

wah these are all so true man. like every single one is spot on.
the positive one, they are all true la.
negative one, super true also. revengeful . muahahaa

2009-05-30T16:30:00.002+08:00

it's the 2nd time i hear it coming from you.
my heart shivers. chill all over my body, my heart aches.
my taboo.
i never allow myself to say that, to think of it.
you are saying it like it's nothing.
even if it's used as a threat from not wanting me to do something, it's forbidden.
my heart squirms.

2009-05-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

i care i care i care.
mayb i jus don't know how to express myself well, or perhaps i dont want ppl to know how i feel.
i care so much that i grumble for every little things.
i don't wan to b***k.
nvr thought of that, atriocious it is. how could u say such things.
i care about nothing except you, baby.
i may play, i may taunt. but i am still here, to be with you.
i want to know that you feel for me, you care for me. by testing you thru jealousy.
my bad, and i shall stop playing, for i do not wan to hear the same words from you again.

2009-05-25T18:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday dar brought me to watch a play , 'Much ado about nothing' by william shakespear.
had this feeling that i wont like it initially . but after that it's really nice i felt.
went for our monthly ice cream at marvellous creme.
had xinwang for brunch, fantastic. highly recommended.

this little book of our memory, witness of our love and our time walk, is really sweet.
i love it a lot, that i teared.
it has photos of us in the past few months and little drawings with descriptions.
thank you baby.

yesterday was a great day although i was moody at some point. cnt help it. woman..
had supper after that, reached home at 12. collapsed.

2009-05-18T14:30:00.000+08:00

see for yourself the pinkness!
www.pinkdotsg.blogspot.com

2009-05-18T11:53:00.002+08:00

when mommy went off, she took my self-discipline with her .
i am spending money like a spoilt brat .
ever since i got my ATM card on thursday, i've been swiping it.
jus on sat, i spent 100 bucks on a bag and a shirt.
and ytd i spent not so much, thank god. only 13 bucks on nets.
but i nearly wanted to bought a pair of pants for 60 bucks.
lucky for me cause edith was there to control me.

the worst part is, my dad is not stopping me!
he speaks in a way that is encouraging me to spend.
he kept saying '' it's okay to buy branded stuff, i understand. the quality is better . as long as you don't blindly follow the trend and buy overated stuff it is okay. ''
his overated is thousand plus bucks.
wtf luh. now only got edith and elsie control me.
oh wait, did i mention that i told my father ytd that im spending money like how the tap is running water. he said '' if you not enough i can deposit another 1k into yr bank ''
i should throw away my card man.

2009-05-17T23:40:00.003+08:00

ytd went to pink dot!
it was awesome! omg the gays there are super hunky and nice-looking luh.
the lezzies still okok only .
laogong took photo with irene ng. cool right ?
and the people there are extremely friendly. super nice ppl. love them
went to sooma coffee hse for coffee. because every drink bought on that day , they will donate 1 buck to the pink dot. and actually the owners of the coffee hse are all gays. nonetheless they are warmly and friendly.
oh, and did i mention that me and edith wore couple tee? hehe..
strangers would come up to us and say '' that's a cute shirt u have '' , even irene ng said so .
love pink dot! love gayness!

2009-05-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

E maths paper 2 was alright. a bit tricky.
Phys P2 a bit killer . hope can pass .

after papers went home and change, bro pick edith up and dropped us at orchard.
on the way there, we made out again. oh shiok man.
then went to take find pink shirt for pink dot .
bought 2 similar shirt from Pull and Bear . yay~ our 1st couple tee .

then walk walk, had pepper lunch.
trained home, took the red line. and jus before bishan the train stopped for like 10 mins.
then moved on. then stopped at bishan for another 5 mins.
then jus befr ang mo kio stopped for another 10 mins.
finally reach ang mo kio, they ask us to get out .

then the whole ang mo kio platform like human jam , super terrible.
strolled around amk hub for around 1hr 30 mins then go home. must wait for crowd to disperse.

played arcade. and i sat for the kids car. those kind where by u put 1 dollar coin then it will shake shake for a min plus . in exchange for that dare, i get to pda with her for a week. whoots.

2009-05-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

made out with edith in the car behind my brother's back!
yay babe!

2009-05-01T23:03:00.008+08:00

me and elsie have been webcamming for quite sometime.
then also dunno why we started thinkin names for my 2 future daughters.
and here it goes...
natalie sam-lim yun yi
taylor sam-lim wei yi
cool right ? LMAO. but i think is nice. though i think the surname would not be approve la.

2009-04-29T21:23:00.003+08:00

3 weeks since i last post-ed.
let me write out what happened in the last 23 days and why i didn't post for so long.

initially was busy taking care of mother cause she contracted brain cancer.
took care of her til she passed away on 13th april at 1.45am.
not very glorious, but she committed suicide. she wasnt in a sane state.
and it was also a relieve for her. at least she did not have to go through the last stage of cancer, which is horrendous.
13th april was a monday.
so the the subsequent week, i did not attend school. her funeral lasted for 5 days. cremated on friday.
the following week, returned to school and try to catch up with work.
celebrated 2nd month on 22nd april. and a movie just ytd.
and also my father jus got sacked like the following week after the funeral week.
so was kinda troubled with the family conflicts.

13th april
woken up by the opening of my bedroom door. and someone in dark blue switched on my lights.
i turned to look at them, quickly reached for the floor.
stood up, went up to them. take a closer look..cops. 5 cops.
they asked
'' are you alone ?'' ,
'' where is your mother ?'' ,
'' what was your mother wearing ? '',
''do you have your mother i/c? '' and
'' do you have i/c ? ''
i stunned. felt like a dream. a very odd dream.
i froze for a second, and asked '' may i know what happened ? ''

they did not answer me, goosebumps rose.
they shoot again '' if we bring u to identify a pair of slippers that belongs to your mother, would you be able to regconise ? ''
'' yes''
they brought me from 11th storey to 14th storey. walked to the stairs.
there it was, a pair of ripples slippers on a stand for pots.

'' do you regconise them? '' by the policemen .
''it'..s m..ine..'' i stumbled.
we took the lift to the 1st level.

i turned to my left when i left the lift.
i broke down. hair rose. praying hard it is just a horrible dream.
a tent was on the pathway. printed on the tent was '' POLICE ''
the whole area around the tent was cordon off.
i knew clearly who was lying under that tent.
that was how my nightmare started. and it is still going on.
i miss her.

2009-04-06T21:34:00.002+08:00

summing up my life for the past week.
edith. take care of my mother. dance. sch. remedials. tuition.
that's all.
jus had dance jus now.
great achievement! i gain 2 more blisters and 1 bruise. boo yea~
gopal and ms chua jus now watched us dance, then say we cnt get bronze, very not coordinating.
after like so many times full-out. nearly fainted man.
next tues then syf liao T.T
omgomg~
andandand, it's so tiring for me nowadays.

Ps. GO TO EDITH'S BLOG , THE LINK'S OVER THERE >>>
SHE CHANGED HER BLOGSKIN TO MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER!
I LOVE HER~!

2009-03-30T21:15:00.002+08:00

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.
kill me kill me kill me kill me.

get me a toilet bowl, let me shit my troubles out.

2009-03-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

thank you Rachael, and everyone else whom showed concern .
thank you for those who cared, worried and prayed for me and my mom .
it's great to know there's a whole lot of friends with you at hard times .

thank you Edith, for trying to cheer me up everyday. trying to make everything right. always being there for me.

it's heart-warming and at the same time heart-breaking.
recovering yet short lifespan.
i can't fulfil my duties as a daughter.
i don't get to give her a good life.
she don't get to see me graduate, get a job and settle down .
i said before, i wanted to live in a 5-room apartment.
1 room for me and my partner,
2 for my kids,
and one for her.
there shall be a dressing desk, bed, plasma tv and wardrobe in her room .
i said before, i wanted to bring her to travel around the world once i've got the money.
i said i wanted to bring her to japan when i came back from japan school trip.
life's been hard on her.

2009-03-25T07:02:00.002+08:00

if being strong is having to go through all this.
i rather be a weakling.
if being filial have to be shown in this manner.
i rather be a unfilial daughter.
if i can exchange my life for hers.
i would.
if i can extend her life with mine.
i would.
god is fair.
i was given something precious and dearly, my gf.
i am now being deprive of another dearly person, my mother.

2009-03-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

overslept. no sch.
watch show.
go. hosp. mom.
bedridden. blur.
heartache. teared.
brain tumour. attacked brain.
cnt think. cnt move properly.
teared several times.
home.
she came.

2009-03-20T23:26:00.003+08:00

went for tuition in the afternoon.
damn unproductive man.
met laopo in the late afternoon for movay.
she's super dashing , suave , cool and attractive , i tell u.
seriously man. i was stunned to see her . she's not just shuai. damn chio also.
xD
okok stop praising liao.
watched slumpdog millionaire, very very nice.
then makan at errrr..koblablabla, forget the name liao. but it's very nice.
a jap restaurant at the basement of cine.
then laopo bought cheese cake from gloria jeans or smth close to this name .
she sent me home ;)

2009-03-19T22:18:00.005+08:00

Chef of the day !

1st month prezzie for dardar!

Love with a smiley face.

E for Edith!

Small Cookays~

NehNeh Cookay before baking ><

NehNeh Cookay after baking =P

As the pictures had done all the talking, i shall jus brief about what happened.

3 days later will be our 1st month. as a result i went to gerry's hse to bake cookies.

and yes , Regine Bakes.

it turn out to be fabulous! damn nice man. of cos without gerry's help it wont be done.

after baking, bring to orchard find darling.

wah, her shock face damn funnay i tell u. super kawaii.

LMAO!

my 1st bake is for her.
weeee~

2009-03-13T20:57:00.002+08:00

sitting here for 90 minutes. observing the movements of beings as the time ticks off.
sips of coffee. stretching from long hours of sitting.
yawning from lack of energy consumption and rest.
watching you wink as u past by.
holding my bladder as i drink more and more water.
17% of battery left on my laptop.
love you so much.

people, my temporary no. is 98945164. do not delete my old no. (97577948), it will be in use in 1 month's time.

2009-03-13T09:29:00.002+08:00

hmm ytd was sports heat and i dint't run. cause i was reluctant to run and was weak.
after sports heat went to mac and makan.
no phone cnt contact dardar T.T
ah nvm later go buy hi card.
sorry dardar, ytd fell asleep. dunno whether u got call anot but sorry x(
was really tied, that's why
nonetheless i still love you alot alot .

2009-03-11T21:11:00.003+08:00

okay i know i very long never update already, so here i am blogging.
my phone jus got confiscated by mr aw along with ais's phone.
managed to borrow a phone from my brother. needa buy hi card next .
jus want to tell u guys dont sms me for 1 month.
p.s to myself.
monday 9.30-10.30 [eng]
tuesday 9.30-10.30 [ss]
1.12 [eng oral]
wednesday 9.30-? [dance]
thursday 11-12 [geog]

2009-03-04T07:16:00.002+08:00

you ah..silly.
i will never let you go.
i will never stop loving you.
nothing comes before you, your sms is my trace of smile not interruption.
you are everything i can ask for.
i love who you are and everything of yours.
you are most suitable for me.
even when im doing my work, mysteriously i will start drawing you name.
guess how many of your name is on my papers?
clear your outbox and start sending me all that you can offer.
im everywhr in your heart. and you are everywhr in my heart and mind.

2009-03-02T00:31:00.003+08:00

Sat.
had stupid very unproductive tuition.
then went to suntec with te.
dardar bring us to browhaus, te and me had our brows done.
and hell was everyone right, threading is torturous x.x
te left, back to toyroom.
makan, then went to esplanade. ROFL.
damn funny .

Sun.
sucky brother was 3 hrs late for my tuition.
drag til 1.30. zzz.
went down to raffles to check some things. also bought a choco bunny for dardar.
head down to suntec.
as usual blablabla.
esplanade again. got some kinda funny bites, legs very itchy.
home sweet home.

when i look into the sky that was glittering with stars.
i felt lost.
the fear of losing you, dashed up to my head.
the fact that mummy will be gone, ring inside me.
the ultimate destroyer of losing both mummy and you made me teared.
looking at you sleeping soundly on my shoulder, made me wonder how long can we last.
i dare not think of the future for fear of the worst.
i dare not give in my 100% for fear of getting hurt.
i dont want to lose you.
losing mummy is enough.
let me hug u tight forever, im really scared.

2009-02-27T21:13:00.002+08:00

Your Heart Craves Love

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
[true]
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
[quite true]
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
[quite true]
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. [very true]
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
[yea..super true]
Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.
[hey, so not true man]
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
[very true]
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. [very very true]

everything is so true except for the cheating part. me cheat ?.. no way.

You Are a Romantic

You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet.

Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings. [very true]

You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments. [very true]

You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action.

Your strength: Your vivid imagination [somewhat true]

Your weakness: Fear of failure [quite true]

Your power color: Coral

Your power symbol: Oval

Your power month: November

You Act Like You Are 14 Years Old

You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid.
[very true]
You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
[very true]
You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way.
[super true]
You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life. [true]

2009-02-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

You Would Be a Good Spouse 75% of the Time

You have what it takes to be an amazing wife or husband.

You are caring, patient, giving, and romantic. You are willing to work for a marriage.

More than anything, you're not about to let your ego ruin a relationship.

You are humble and unselfish. And that's the key to being a good spouse.

Would You Be a Good Wife or Husband?

keke..i make a good husband worh~

You Are Ready, Willing, and Able to Commit

You are not scared of commitment in the least.

In fact, there's a good chance that you're already committed to someone you love.

You are willing to give up a little freedom for relationship stability.

And once you're in a relationship, you'll do almost anything to make things work.

Are You Afraid of Commitment?

im so devoted. wahaha

Your Heart is Red and Purple

Your heart is strong and powerful.

You are dominant, competent, and brave.

You bring order and support to relationships.

You're good at being the one in control.

What Are the Colors of Your Heart?

im dominant ?! hehehe, interesting.

2009-02-26T07:59:00.003+08:00

i had no intention to pon school today.
just so happened that i overslept and it's english for the first 2 periods.
so jus pon lo. anyw we will be doing funtional and summary. not interested =.=
i had this dream after i woke up at 6 and went back to sleep.
this dream lasted for half an hour, and it seems like eternity.
i dreamt that you were seduced and did smth wrong with her.
it's damn scary, i was in shock even when i was showering .
my heart's still pounding.
don't ever leave me. T.T

2009-02-24T08:16:00.001+08:00

actually wan pon CR period, cause i dont wan write..1..2..3..4..5..6 CRs ?
then ends up i pig, wake up liao then go back to sleep. til now pon geog also.
ahhh my ms tham T_T
now rush down to sch, geog also end liao. so take my time lo.
muscle ache sia, don wan ran 10 rounds la.
i love her so much.
i wan love you more.

2009-02-23T00:33:00.002+08:00

a day to rmb.
the day i yearn for finally came.
weee~
i will treasure you..i will.
i cannot describe how i feel.
happy like a dolphin ?
my heart found a place to settle down.
the place is you.
i love you, really do.
i will not leave you.
22-2-09

2009-02-18T07:53:00.002+08:00

Despite us having neither status nor commitments,
I still promise to honour u, love u, care for u, not abandon u, always be there for you and never take you for granted .
What i said was true and still is.
My heart is still with you, til now no one can replace you in my heart.
I will not break your heart regardless of what.
I do not do sweet talks, believe me.

2009-02-15T23:47:00.002+08:00

valentine's was great !

received loads of prezzies on friday, thanks Edith, gerry, rebecca, janene, sally ,rachael[though i nvr go take the cookays] choon hui, jessica, xin hui, tong en, yen hui for all the presents.

sat. valentine's day.

went to the zoo!

saw lotsa animals, very fun.

GOT A SHEEP LIKE ME! licked my hand+arm, and wagged its tail upon seeing me. sper cute lah, is baby sheep smr .

omg i went over the moon after that. i wan keep sheep when i grow up. go aust and open farm.

SO CUTE CAN ?

then makan at sakura restaurant.

i've got liking for shell food. had lotsa oyster, muscels, scallops and prawn .

then went to seek for a wallet at hereen. but nvr found one.

thanks for the day ^^ ..woootss

sun.

had blardy eng tuition, rot my ass off man.

then went suntec. i bought a nike wallet !! so happy ^^

it attracted me straight away when i saw it. very shuai.

but sadly, there is no coin pouch, and very little card compartment.

nvm, very seldom anything will attract me der, so i will jus make do with it . ;DDDD

like finally after 1yr++ i change wallet ler .

2009-02-11T20:40:00.002+08:00

been a longgg ages since i've seen this page. i know i very long never update ler.
but today very fun. i love days that have got cca. rocks man
i was so high lah.
that rachel dont wan let me carry. then that xin yin keep wanting me to carry her
i carried a 40kg shortie and ran 4/5 of a court sia!

and i jus realised, __ is so much taller than 1.7M, very scary sia.
one head taller than i am !!!
anyw today was damn high lah..and i jus came to my senses, how embarrassing i was jus now.
arghhhh.. i shouted '' your mother pubic hair ah ? '' so loud in the canteen after dance .
myyyyy godddddd.
AND I HAVE GAINED LIKE 2KG. woots, something worth dying for..
urghhhh.

okay, anyw .. my friend kinda ask me do this 10 fingers crossed thing to determine whether im more sub-consiously devoted to love or work.
and turns out , im more sub-consiously into love, that explains why i do so much foolish things when i dont to.
sometimes my brain keeps tell me, not to go find u..but the next moment i find myself standing at yr void deck. the experiment quite accurate to me..
that also expains why u can be so dedicated to yr work and music things.
man, i lost to my sub-consious. i cnt control myself. urghhh
kinda whiney here, so shall see you guys again soon. bwahaha

2009-02-07T10:07:00.002+08:00

tagged by rechelle.

The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about themself.
2. People who get tagged need to write their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts.
3. At the end, player needs to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!

About Me:
1. im short and stubby.
2. im gaining weight everytime, but not really giving a damn.
3. im eccentric and wild.
4. i will do almost anything when im high.
5. i love maths.
6. vulgarities kinda stick to me wherever i go.
7. i dont read.
8. people says im crazy, but i beg their differ.
9. i like biting right now.
10. i love shopping.

ARE YOU:
1. Are you single?
yes.
2. Are you happy?
well..sometimes.
3. Are you bored?
not really.
4. Are you fair?
yah, but not like white chicken.
5. Are you Italian?
is yr mother italian?
6. Are you intelligent?
im dumb.
7. Are you honest?
yah.
8. Are you nice?
nop. im nasty.
9. Are you Irish?
is yr father irish ? if yes, then i am.
10. Are you lame?
nop.

TEN FACTS:
1. Full Name: regine lim wei jun
2. Nicknames: siao zhar bo, lesbo..
3. Birth place: landed in elizebeth hosp. from my mother's hole.
4. Hair color: dark brown
5. Natural hairstyle: puffy.
6. Eye Colour: Brown
7. Birthday: 29091993
8. Mood: i wan to shit, jus quickly get this over with
9. Favourite colour: green red black white purple
10. One place you like to visit: NY. LA. hokkaido. switzerland.

1.The person who passed you this quiz is:
rechelle
2.Your relationship with him/her:
friends.
3.Your 5 impression of him / her:
dao tall funny-walking person ..
4.The most memorable thing she / he has done for you:
errr.
5.The most memorable word she / he has said to you:
forget liao.
6.If she/he become your lover you will:
go bonkers.
7.If she/he become your lover, things he/she should improve on:
the way she walk.
8.If he/she become my enemy:
don think possible la.
9.If he/she become my enemy the reason is:
the way she walk xD
10.The most desired thing you want to do with him/her now is:
shopping.
11.Your overall impression with him/her is:
weird.
12.How do you think people around you will feel about you?:
they always say im crazy and embarrassing in the public. but i dont think so leh.
13.The characteristics you love about yourself are:
my braces ;D
14.On the contrary,the characteristics you hate about yourself are:
too short =.=
15.The most ideal person you want to be is?:
ru hua.
16.For those people that care and like you, say something to them:
i will try to care for u too. ;D

2009-02-03T21:28:00.002+08:00

i felt very stress today.
suddenly, all the tests, remedials and dance is rushing towards me.
when hoho was teaching us on electricity; current; volt..so and so.
my brain was hurting, i could not understand what is volt. i felt stress at that point of time.
then i started thinking of the upcoming events,
tmr - geog test; phy remedial; OSCAR; dance session.
thurs - amaths test ; emaths test; chem SPA
friday - dance session.
next thurs got phy SPA. common tests are coming up.
really really , very pressurized.
i dunno how the seniors manage to cope with all this crap. a slacker like me cannot withstand such heavy blow(s).

i could not get your attention, care and support. im very sick of one-way love.
it's like a circuit, it can never work with jus one side of the battery, it needs both the negative and positive side .
i have been in the denial world long enough. it's time i wake up.
im really sick of loving u. i've got no energy, no more love..u hurt me too many times; im drain off all my strength and energy .
can u love me for once ?

2009-02-01T09:55:00.003+08:00

im your last .. last resort..last thing u rmb..last chioce.

im immune to all the stabs u incidentally place in my heart, daily.

im no longer passionate about love.

Nothing goes well without you..

2009-01-28T00:20:00.003+08:00

blackjack-ed whole day at my uncle's hse.

and i started losing from the moment i sit down.

then god of wealth come and stack my bets, straight away blackjack 3 times consecutively.

that lucky pair of hands belongs to god of wealth.

then he left, and i continue losing =.=

i lost from 3.30pm to 9pm.

$30 bucks flew away. 1st year i lose money. lose so much smr.

every year i also will win one. this year i go wear everything black, undies also black =.= tamade

O well~ once a year only.. nvm luh.

that's my cousin jesmond, in 3 of the pics.

he's damn playful and super cute. he's annoying at times but i like kids , so nvr scold him.

cant wait for danielle(my future niece,due in 2 months' time) to arrive ~.~

2009-01-27T12:27:00.002+08:00

yesterday was Lunar New Year. ehh..how to sayy.

was lacking ''WOW IT'S NEW YEAR! '' mood.

felt jus like any other normal days .

oh, and i nearly cause the car to lose a door, was sleeping on the car then when arrived at ahma's hse. i jus recklessly swing the door open and there was this oncoming car that honked damn loud and scared the wits outta me.

jus woke up, cnt blame right..

incident #2 , upon arrival at my ahma's hse..my grandma stunned in front me.

cause..she thought i was my eldest brother's new gf. like, in which way do i look that old ?!

and to thought that i had reunion dinner with her on Sunday =.= wtf??

that's the reason i post my pic..tell me, which way i look old ?!

after that was usual stuff lah, headed to maternal grandparents' hse. collect angbao. hehe haha.

then left.

reached home at 5.30pm

slept at 6.30pm til 8.30am in the morning.

going to maternal forth uncle's soon. POKER HERE I COME~!! YEAAAA MONEYYYYY ^^

2009-01-24T09:08:00.002+08:00

yesterday, went to bugis with tong en, jorC, jia chyi, ming zheng and eugene like after school.
all went back to change except for 1, the one who wore chinese dance cca tee that girl. LOL.
it was hell fun with them.
super funny.
bought my flats and a shorts.
i like a bag from BONIA, S$476. it's very very nice. i like ;D
who wan buy for me ?~
jia chyi was imitating mr loh speaking foul language, then make me laugh til i cough like hell.
then those guys cnt stop suaning me.
and tong en kept snapping unglam photos of us. JORC'S STORY IS DAMN FUNNY!
opps..~
had a fun time. and a great time now, with no voice. woooo.
kk ciaos. gotta go get ready for tuition.

2009-01-20T21:26:00.003+08:00

these are what i got in the morning.

thanks rebecca and gerry!! me love you !!

it's a powerpuff girl sponge ball and a vodka shaped umbrella. they are my belated birthday presents, for last year.

alright, i've let go of all my sorrows and unhappiness.

today damn fun. all thanks to tong en and her lame-ness. OPPS ;D

2009-01-19T20:38:00.003+08:00

ha, i dint know my existence matters so much.
only when something happens, you realise me.
its okay. im used to it.
you're not the first one that hurt me.
you're the 3rd. aint you honoured?
i only want to know how u feel towards me, isit that tough ?
maybe this is the time my heart should start to die and rot.
because im mentally exhausted and emotionally drained.
i think it is the only way to preserve my puny life.

-edited-
wooo, im always there for people.
and im always alone when i breakdown.
ok lah, i shouldn't blame anyone. i never open up. haha too bad for me.
i remember those nights whereby i sit on my bed, hugging tightly to my pillow while the droplets rolled down my cliffs.
i swear, i need a break. i really need it.

2009-01-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. SHIT

2009-01-18T10:12:00.001+08:00

I yllaer naw ot wonk woh uoy leef, od uoy wonk taht?
Tub I t’nod tnaw ot ecrof ym yaw hguorht ruoy sgnileef.
Revewoh I ma gnitruh flesym, 1 yaw si ton gnihtemos ecin. Ti struh, s’ti lufwa.
Era uoy dam nehw I dias I tnaw ot tup m serutcip no eadirf ot tcartta elpoep?
Era uoy suolaej nehw I lkat tuoba elpoep I ekil?

Siht skcus.

2009-01-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

boring day AGAIN. nvr is there once whereby i find the day interesting IN school.
after dance went over to opp with all the siao ding dongs.
dunno why, was quiet at the start.
then when we all left for CC mac from opp. i jus became damnnnnnnn high.
i mean it's like a really long time since i've been so crazy so siao. (no laughin to myself during Amaths doesnt count, not siao enough.)
think the last time i was sooooooo crazy was perhaps sec 2?
...
laugh laugh laugh. started singing.
then laugh and drop to the ground, due to severe dizziness from excessive laughter.
i dropped to the ground like...erm mayb 8 times in all ?
that normal 10 mins trip to CC mac took like 20 mins ?
because i was playing piggyback. singing, talking..shouting a lot of laughing.
then i go ask weihong piggyback me, i leaped onto him and ...he fell backwards =.=
ELAINA IS LIKE STRONGER THAN HIM LAH.
i think i even dropped in the middle of the road..cnt really rmb.
when you laugh, all the things that are happening around u becomes so blur. and when u try to recall, it's vague.
then reach mac, sat outside.
back to old kampong days..all the garlic loaves came out.
then me, elaina, tongen, aishah, bryan, elaina's sis and friend and alex stayed and chatted .
jorC and weihong left early .
hahahaha..we blablabla til porn . XD
okay i shall stop here. kinda sian of typing all this crap liao.

2009-01-16T06:36:00.003+08:00

Reminder to self.
1. not to on the air-con at night, suffering every morning.
2. try to wear pants with lesser buttons. xD
3. get new year clothes.
4. pay jan & feb tuition fees.
5. book dental apointment with dr.mah.
6. dont exhaust self.
7. start doing mr tan's hw.
8. go get a pencilcase, really need it.
9. get earpiece from boonlay.
10. go buy 1.5L green tea, at least 4.
11. start saving up my shillings for CNY.
12. save money.
things to get after CNY, according to importancy.
. pencilcase
. earpiece
. socks
. wallet
. underwear
. boxer
. backpack
. handbag
. formal clothes
. jackets

P.s please set aside part of angbao money for valentines day.

2009-01-13T21:59:00.002+08:00

good thing? bad thing ? help me choose? or should i roll the dice?
give and take. give too much not good. take too much even worse.
hard to balance uh. i think balancing an orange on my head is easier.

saya sayang kau.

2009-01-13T16:44:00.002+08:00

sch was boring, as usual. and i entertained myself lor.
morning played powerpuff girls.
Amaths lesson , was laughing by myself LOUDLY and was rather irritating .. that's what the others said.
i think i laughed for like 30 mins ? laughin at nothing =.=
then MT was blabbering session.
trained to cck after sch to do my ez link, which i lost it yesterday.
i dunno why i am reporting my life to you all, mayb cause i've got nothing better to do.
shall go watch tv now. weeee

2009-01-12T20:46:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDITH!

today went to makan at new york new york.
saw evelyn, omg..she scored 10 points for L1R4!!!! and that gay woman, rech..scored a blardy 8 points =.=
damn..this world is full of monsters.
anyw, the food at new york new york, soso only.. was expecting smth more mind-blowing.
next time shall head for BOSS!
been aiming for that for ages ler. but then shopping more impt than food, so nvr go save for a meal at BOSS. bleah.

i didnt mean to make it so shocking for u. mayb u still dunno me well luh. i like giving surprises, shocks and scares. that's who i am luh, hur .
nothing much alright ? dont probe so much. last time liao. broke liao. weeeeee~
thanks for your words of assurance. now i can really step down to studies and not idle in romance ler.
thanks a lot ^^

2009-01-11T08:37:00.003+08:00

regine regine regine , back to studies.
im so going off track.
nvm, regine shall bring regine back to the old boring textbooks.
ytd's tuition was awesome! i dint get anything =D
cause our marvellous bukit view is so lagged behind compared to other schools.
no binomial expression = no differciation
wasted my 3 hrs. pfffft.
weeeeeee~ english tuition rushing to me in 20 mins time. isnt life jus wonderful ?
today gna be a tiring and tedious day. so many places to go.

-edited-
yep, jus as i predicted. so tired man. urgh. life. studies. romance. family. hard to juggle worh.
anywwwwww, lim chong hiang, u r such a son of a bitch.
ohyea, btw he's my father. well-known hypocrite, at least in my eyes.
he's damn good at driving ppl crazy and literally into the coffin.
we will see how i shall torture him when he grows old and have his legs amputate.
buahahaha ;D

2009-01-10T12:11:00.002+08:00

5 days since my last update .
weeee.
sch's fine recently. mayb im feeling the tension of O's ? mayb i jus wan a change in my studies style.
either way , i've changed .. i am starting to do my work , trying to finish it before due dates.
sickening. i still missed my ah lian days. O well.
on the other hand, i had fun this few days.
let see, wed..thurs..fri.
not bad..had been hanging out after sch.
and im lacking sleep man. feeling bloody-ly tired after every single hectic day.
even now, when i jus woke up 1hr ago and jus bathed. im still tired.
and i have got a 3 hrs tuition coming up. wish me luck man.
tata~

2009-01-05T18:39:00.003+08:00

regine's a fucking coward ~ regine's a fucking coward ~ weeeeee!
well that explains all.

jus woke up from 2 hrs nap. still feeling tired and lifeless.
today i haven eat , and mom's gna go buy food now. and im not feeling hungry.
my taste buds are not open for business yet.
weee~
today's sch's not bad. soso , still quite fun. at least i got listen lah.
chinese still sucks as usual and i was sleeping during english..standard
everything's jus like before. hmmmm...

anyw my biceps are a little aching , from carrying that little monster ytd.
haha xuan xuan so cute. weeeee. but hell my biceps really aching lah.

2009-01-04T01:46:00.003+08:00

the first thing i will do on monday is to tell u,
how sorry i am and what a fucker i was.
i wna tell u, i really love u..i still do. i miss the times.
but i always told myself that, u r trying to forget me..i asked myself dont pop into her life again.
but now, i will not be so stupid anymore.
2009 shall be a wonderful year for us.
im so sorry. let me bring u back from the shadows.

2009-01-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

hmm, today is korkor's wedding.
i wore a dress and heels, not bad lah.. i kinda like it.
not as bad as i thought.
their wedding was lovely, elaine zehzeh is pretty..omg gorgeous.
and my korkor looked like short and stubby manager xDDD
i bet u guys wna see the pics eagerly right ?
tmr then i upload k..now abit tired ler .
wooooo, im falling in love with dress and heels. BLEH

2009-01-01T22:31:00.002+08:00

okay..
i know there had been really alot alot of emo posts .
but now im really happy and cheery. so no worries that u will feel sad and miserable after reading my post ;D

hmm, staying at my bro's condo is damn good. had lotsa fun this few days.
monday-swam.run around town with bro.

tues-swam.went to suntec find edtih.

wed-cycling at east coast. countdown-ed at orchard. stay out whole night by the singapore river playing poker+truth or dare.

thurs-breakfast with edith after whole night out. went back to bro's condo, packed and left for home. slept for 3 hrs and then went to suntec and meet bro. shopped with now.

okayy, the following things that i had bought are going to shock u.
i bought a ..
dress .. and heels.
in additional, a COTTON ON shirt and a pants.

okayy, the dress is kinda like prom dress and the heels are mayb 2 inch? or 3 ? not sure .
anyw they are meant for my bro's wedding coming up this sat .
and after shopping hours for dress and looking thru tonnes to dresses, i kinda feel in love with them ><
shit i didnt jus said that =XXXX

yea..that's all for today. AND IM 16, MUAHAHAHAHA!

2008-12-30T07:10:00.000+08:00

我羡慕人家有斗志心，能因为不想被看不起而努力奋斗。

我做不到，我很想因为人家骂我''草包''而努力然他们看。

三个月前我为了同意件事而伤心。

我为何没有脾气??为什么不会生气??

我甚至连七亲六欲都好像没有。

我周围的亲戚朋友，人人是状元。。只有我远远落后。

长大真的不好玩!!!!

我心烦，心疼，心急。urghhh. wtfffff。

我想一醉不醒。

别管我，我还是比较喜欢自己一个人承受一切的烦恼。

2008-12-30T02:35:00.002+08:00

我不知道何时被卷进这个混乱中。

真的很屎。

我第一次做坏人，第一次对不起自己，第一次受到良心的牵着。

i used to lead a carefree, happy go lucky life.
but now, within 9 days, all sorts of things i heard or happened on me are so beyond my wildest imagination.

我真的不能相信我会有这样的一天，我好怀念小学没压力的日子。

怀念中一中二的坏小孩的日子，无尤无录的日子。

i cannot even believe im studying chemistry, physcis and amaths such crap.

有时后，我真的感到好无足。

我还找不到人身的目标, 到底是为了什么而活。

没人能引导我吗?

相信我，whatever you do, it wont make me feel deeper nor more hurt. you cannot affect me. only isabel can. but she's out of my life already.

亲爱的，就别怪自己了。

只要给我一点时间，然我慢慢想通，慢慢放下你，就行了。

meanwhile, LET'S ENJOY THE LAST 2 DAYS OF 2008!! and then giv a boring clap to 2009 =.=

2008-12-29T22:59:00.002+08:00

me knows me had been bloggin bout love love love. very boring.

so me told myself, me will not say about them anymore. me so good right ? dont wan bore u to death.

okay. today went to sch , bought books. then chatted with ais and the others in dance studio.

left, went home..packed and headed to city hall to meet korkor.

then ran around town running errands with him =.=

city hall..somerset..dhoby ghout..bugis..wow. bleah.

finally reach sengkang. then dropped my stuff, change..went swim swim.

i swam and swam, tried to drain my energy, my soul. but i cant. u jus wont get out of my mind.

it hurts. i wna forget u. but i dont wna forget u. contradicting much?

oh shit..there i go with love again.. SORRY xP

anyw, HERE GOT CARTOON!!! WEEEE got spongebob squarepants.

and it's so peaceful here, no naggings. not quarrelings. not shouting. no noise.

i love it here. i can clear out my thoughts, relax and chill.

mayb when she's gone. i will move here. hais.

2008-12-29T08:53:00.002+08:00

OHAIYO!
leaving this place and headin to the other side of the island for a 3D2N vacation at bro's condo..
muahahaha.
needa leave this place for a while.
my heart's suffering a relapse from the love illness.
it's aching and u're not here to giv me a hug to relieve the tension.
must faster go sengkang. go thr swim.
staying here will only lead to another hectic day.
must move to a unfamiliar area, relax and chill.
so yea..ciaos ^^ cya assholes when sch reopens ~

2008-12-28T23:48:00.002+08:00

when my brain was processing the trigo function question ,
my heart was aching like it had jus went for a 5km marathon, it was so painful. so painful for me to bear. i jus felt like stabbing myself, let the pain go off.
i was telling myself '' let her go, jus let it go..jus do that fucking logarithm question ''
i couldn't. i really really wan to, but my heart clinch on to u like a koala bear to a tree.
thanks zhar bo, thanks for making me let out how i felt .
i feel so much better, no more big fat rock crushing onto my heart, no more aching stabbing feel.
i figured it out.
i wont let u go. i wont stop loving u.
but i will not let my feelings tie me down, tie me away from my studies.
i wan to score. score and go to the course i wan. then i can really do what i wan.
then i will put in my all to court u. beware xP
bwahahahaha

2008-12-28T08:56:00.005+08:00

at least i manage to catch 8 hrs of sleep daily.
although compared to my 14hrs of daily sleep i used to have it's like chicken feet but better than nothing . i hate waking up so bloody fking early in the moring.
used to wake up at 2/3pm , then watch tv and eat. then all my fave tv shows will be on air though is repeated. and then dinner, then use comp til 3am. then sleep.
a day can pass so quickly u see ?
i shall stop whining. me know me have been complaining for the past few days.

hate O's. hate hate hate hate O's.
if not cause of O's, i will ask u.
i know what i wan, and i know what im doing is not wrong.
but im still rational. i dont wan ruin my O's.
i dont wan retake my O's or get 20+ .
but waiting for 10 mths in agony it's like waiting for a relative in coma to wake up.
dont leave me.

2008-12-27T14:43:00.002+08:00

lying on my bro's bed now.
yea, im at sengkang now.
my asshole bro asked me to come over to collect my xmas present and it's not here =.=
it's at his gf's hse, at amk.
so have to wait here for like 3 hrs? befr the prezzie comes.
o well. at least there's CARTOOOON!!!!
IM WATCHING FAIRLY ODDPARENTS NOW!
ahh i missed my cartoons T_T.
must come seng kang more often ;DDD
ooooo, good news everyone! i ate ytd !! had 1/3 or a packet of rice for lunch. then ate the other 1/3 for dinner. dunno what happened to the other 1/3 though.
todayy ahh.. still haven had anything. but me not hungry ;D

Rach - hey girl thanks! but me not dumb to tell my mom. she will jus force me to eat and eat even though i dont feel like. she wont bring me go see doc der. anyw i will fine, thanks straighty ^^ me love u~!!

2008-12-26T13:02:00.001+08:00

ahh i dunno how i get myself into this shit.
4 days nvr eat liao.
i dont eat, my stomach will growl and twist.
i eat will have gastric pain, super pain those kind.
save me!!

2008-12-26T07:52:00.002+08:00

so i spent my christmas out with edith ytd to watch bedtime stories.
nice show, v.funny..and they've got this CHAO SUPER CUTE HAMSTER ><
omg..so cute.
anyw i was totally wasted ytd. totally.
couldnt really rmb what i did, quite blurry. hmm nice day and i had fun ;D
thanks girl.

2008-12-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

wahh damn shiok man.
3 days only had 1 meal.
monday nvr eat.
tuesday ate half the longjohnsilver meal.
today nvr eat.
SHIOK MAN!
im so happy im so happy im so happy! wooooooo
and i dont have the christmasy feel. like everyone has been wishing me well.
but i dont feel the blessings leh. ha! nvm .. me dont care. me happy .

2008-12-24T06:06:00.003+08:00

i feel so miserable.
everyday 2 hrs of sleep. everyday no appetite.
try to eat also will get gastric.
sound so like an aneroxic kid .
slept at 4 and woke jus at 6.
can kill me?
i dont wan to be awake for 22 hrs every single day.
very sian man. urgh

2008-12-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

met edith today.
okay lah, a very nice girl . interesting also.
caught a movie , YES MAN!..felt like ages since i've step out of the house and watch movie .
after movies, went to taka.
then walk around.
then tampiness.
then long john silver.
then trained home.
long talk also. or should i say, non-stop talking ?
anyw, i've eaten smth today.
ytd whole day nvr eat.
today nvr eat til 8pm ?
and i had leftovers in my plate for goodness sake. i nvr had so much leftover befr man.
and i felt so terrible after that . til now it's still thr and even worse, i meant the feel.
woooooooo doomsday here i come ~ xD

2008-12-22T21:53:00.003+08:00

it's been 3 yrs since i had this feeling. 3 yrs.
loss of appetite, insomnia, totally lost.
i've nvr felt so lost for ages.
i know what i want. and i know i wouldn't get it. and i shouldn't.
for the 2nd time in my life i forsake food and sleep. because these are no longer the things that keep me going.
it's incredible because it has only been a day.

2008-12-22T19:27:00.002+08:00

3 days ago i was still eating like 4 meals and plenty of junk foods.
now i totally lost my appetite. i woke up at 6 am, and surprisingly i dint start ransacking for food around the house.
and from 6am til now, 7.30pm i still haven swallow anything and not feeling hungry.
first was insomnia. then was loss of appetite. and finally i've been deep in my thoughts the whole day. not able to concentrate in anything, not jus homework.
even when buying standard ticket, i wanted to go to bukit batok from choa chu kang.
and i press choa chu kang when i was choosing the destination for the standard ticket.
see what i mean? cck press cck ..
im dying man. seriously . dooms day is drawing near ;DDDDD

2008-12-22T03:01:00.006+08:00

knnccbmotherfuckingpieceofshit.
slept at 3.30 ytd after hanging up with my new made friend.
then woke up at 6 when my mother came in to put the alarm clock.
then i when i try to go back to sleep, felt so warm and irritating .
tamade, only had 2.5hrs of sleep sia. wan sleep cnt sleep. shit lah. damn myself man.
what am i suppose to do at 6.30 in the morning ?! READ THE MOTHER FUCKING NEWSPAPER !?!?! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

-edited-
11.21 now , 5hrs and 21 mins had past. for this 321 mins i was suffering in pain man.
walked around the hse aimlessly, surfed the tv at the rate of 20chnls/min .. see how bored i was..? used the comp also got no game to play.
and i was waiting for ais's and edith's sms in agony can ? so bored and waiting sooooo painfully.
dunno why got insomnia also. and my chest is feeling awfully tight .
im dying!! :D

2008-12-21T21:39:00.002+08:00

seriously i wan ship all the arseholes to bermuda triangle man.
today i had tuition . like after 1 and a half months.
anyw, while im on my way to tuition, i saw this mother fuckin disgustin , should be shot uncle being topless in the bus. and he had 1 foot on the chair. and he only wore his shirt when he was about to alight. tamade, seriously should be shot.
im sorry, i mayb mean. but i dont care, i dont like this kinda ppl. if my father in any case have got this kinda behavious in the future i so will dump him in da old folks home, i hate him anyw.

then nvm, had 3 hrs of tuition. sickening. all the simple qns that i used to close 1 eye and do, i cant even do it now with 2 eyes 1 brain. hais. sad sad .
alright, anyw. after 3 hrs of torture , bused home.
and ya know what ? again it's about blardy idlers..the elderly .
this uncle, perhaps in his 60s..
he sat by the window minding his own business, quite civilised and decent looking.
then he suddenly coughed , the phlegm-y kinda cough. and he spat on the bus floor. HE SPAT IN A BUS!!!!! WTFFFFF IS HIS PROBLEMMMMM!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH
some ppl say im a hygiene freak. this has nothing to do with hygience man. HE SPAT IN A BUS! OMGOODNESS! ARGHHHHH
and then he started digging his nose and flicking his pisai off .
fuck, from the start i already dislike elderlys. now my ambition is to be a terrorist and kill all of them.

they are such social pest. whatever u might say, i will not change my view towards them. EW. pui.

2008-12-21T10:42:00.003+08:00

sometimes i feel like an arse, carrying all the bad things ppl frame on to me when i dint.
yuan wang-ed man.

2008-12-21T01:42:00.002+08:00

hmm, went do this annual christmas bbq at my aunt's condo.
very standard bbq sight , my bro's gf said.
teens will be smsing/psp-ing.
kids will run around playing catching.
adults will be busy chatting.
kinda boring thr. but my cousin, naydeen..she's damn cute man.
she went to this yellow colour thingy that's cemented to the floor and squatted. then she said '' im laying egg ''..and then ran off.
damn cute man .

okay, ya know beyonce's mv for single ladies is her dance, thru out.
and this guy call shane mercado, some professional dancer, learned her dance and posted it on youtube. and hell it's freaky, cause he dint miss a single detail.
and he shaked his ass harder than beyonce.
he got famous and was invited to a few shows.
must watch k : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6ExgUW6ak8&feature=related

2008-12-20T01:40:00.002+08:00

today had ''modern dance'', well actually it's like nonesense there lah.
cause ais, huda, halijah and ezal are suppose to choreograph a dance for the sec 1 orientation.
huda dint come today.
me ais and halijah was wasting our time at mac watching dance vids, when it's like 10.30
and we r suppose to be thr at like 9.
xu wei was flaming hot man, blasted ais thru phone, sexy right ?
then go thr, they no inspiration .. so we jus played there lah.
running , ping pong . wah damn fun. haha .
ohyahh, ezal was wearing blue contacts. omg so nice . uhhh, if my eyes dont have the flat surface prob, i would have gotten like blue , green, star and purple lah.
the contacts suit him so well. so jealous.
he's damn cool man.
and it's only 1 week left til sch reopen. no way can the few choreograph a like 2mins dance and teach the juniors lah. wooo, 3 cheers for them.
hais, i pity them. lucky im not in the thing xD

2008-12-18T21:36:00.002+08:00

in everyone's eyes im always the villan.
everytime im the one hurting ppl, that's what ppl think.
seriously, i need to get a mirror for everyone.
see how ugly and full of flaws they are.
tsk.
to think im the femme. omg.

2008-12-17T11:56:00.003+08:00

this is reggae. and is damn hardcore.

you might want to fast forward to o.42, i think it's a competition lah and they are jus one of the groups.

i wanted to take reggae, but after watching i see them shake butt and busts like no tmr, i changing my mind liao .

2008-12-16T23:03:00.004+08:00

i jus showed my brother, john the asshole. an english teacher. some 18 yrs old blog with horrible english.
and to think that i score a C5 for my english and im critising them u should be able to imagine what kinda standards they have lah.
then john was reading it out loud while pointing out the mistakes, wah and i was laughing my ass out man .
oooo, and then i showed him my blog. and thank god he dint say much. so means not alot of mistakes lah ;D

-edited-
jus went to 1..2..3..4 blogs with fucked up english. ytd rech was telling me '' how come people can fail O level english, it's not possible . '' ..that's possible. but how can one's english goes to the extend whereby its buang(ugly) til cnt buang(ugly).
i thought my english is bad, but after viewing those blogs, i know those standards cnt be describe by words anymore.
hais, some are 18 yrs old smr.
some even my friends.
sad sad world.
whatever, off to do maths x(

2008-12-16T21:12:00.002+08:00

today woke up at 7am. bath , eat then go to sch.
reach thr, do nth. i've no idea why i went either. mayb too bored at home.
the whole dance studio only got me and aishah, then she danced and do her warm up.
while i slack and played ping pong.
then i started to shouted at some hockey guys from the 1st level, cause the dance studio windows are black on the outside..cnt be seen lah. so i open abit and shouted '' WOOO sexy!! '' while they were running.
bored mah.
then went to BK at WM to eat . then elaina came. then studied. not for me lah. i was busy self-entertaining, due to lack of sleep. ki siao liao lar . slept at 3.30am ytd leh.
then walked around WM, saw Mrs Leong. faster ran out of the building, train to another shopping area, Lot 1.
then i bought a batman buckled belt , 30 bucks. reasonable.
but the fucking fact is it's damn loose, the smallest hole also tooooooo loose for me. i should have tried jus now when the person ask =.= cb. then need go see if they can do any changes to it anot. if not seriously is wasted 30 bucks. hais 2nd belt that's too loose and a fucking waste.

ohyah jus watch from youtube how bush was attacked by shoes from a iraq journalist, apparantly an angry one. damn cool man , go watch .

2008-12-16T01:59:00.003+08:00

it has been ages since i last updated uh ?
i wont say i was busy til no time to update luh, jus lazing around at home, watching anime, eat and sleep.
occasionally meet up with my aishah sweetie cum barney-lover to study.
my holiday assignments still have not been touched upon yet. O well.
can always copy from sally biu jie or some shortie reb.
life's jus boring.
and i have to buy some decent clothes for my bro's wedding .
im thinking of dress..DONT LAUGH, it's not funny =.=
O well.. til then, nights.

-edited-
jus finished watchin all 26 episodes of strawberry panic.
it's 3.19 am now, and i can finally concentrate on my work.
cause of this anime, i watch and watch and watch and neglected everything else. even facebook.
ending of strawberry panic : shizuma got tgt with nagisa and tamao was left alone, as usual.
amane got tgt with hikari and got elected as etoile.
thats all. this anime only has got 4 ppl acting, JKing. jus that these are the main couples in the show, or should i say only couples ?
love this anime to da core man. like the best i've ever watched . better than bleach.
oh yea, i dont think you guys will understand but i jus blabbering for the sake of fun joy and laughter.
and for my own memories also.
damn nice, should go watch. cried 4 times thru out the whole anime.
whateva, nights ;D

2008-12-09T23:57:00.002+08:00

regine ah regine.
when will you make up yr mind .
got cookie think of brownie.
got brownie think of cookie.
liddat, how to slim down.
ends up, hurt the cookie, the brownie and yrself.
hais. mayb regine's not meant for sweet stuff.
sweet stuff makes her get diabeties (lazy go check dic) .
mayb salty food ?..then kidney failure lor .
regine's not meant to be a gourmet . :\

21/24

2008-12-05T21:19:00.002+08:00

this whole week is about dance.
i can think nothing other than dance.
wake up, bath and go out.
dance, then go home at night.
sleep like dead corpse til nx morning.
today every single day also got dance, but i dint attend on monday.. overslept.
and fuck sia, seriously lahh..regretted alot alot .
i missed out alot . fucking alot.
then i used 4 days to actually get all the steps clear , that was taught on monday .
monday - 3hrs of dance ( MISSED )
tuesday - 3hrs of dance.
wednesday - 6hrs of dance.
thursday - 6hrs of dance.
friday - 6hrs of dance.
total - 21/24hrs of dance + 2 knees of bruises + muscle aches + blisters - sleep - food - energy.
thank god thank god today is last day. ahhhhh
omg, bone is breaking.. and teacher say have to slim down to 25 inches and no more fats when sch reopen. my gooooodddd. so now, my brain is only full of diet foods.
i cant think of anything else.

2008-12-01T14:43:00.003+08:00

the pics taken in japan are being uploaded in facebook. still uploading..
got 200+ leh, so must give me more time k peeps?
oh and i forget to mention how disgusting the chers are in my previous post.

okay, due to the climate change, we might not be able to adapt to it and leads to constipation.
so the chers keep saying how many times they shitted, how much the quantity is.
oh my god. DAMN it's disgusting. and they discussed loudly during meal times. what the..arghhh.

oh and there's one of this day , we went to a family park and had our lunch there.
and after the lunch, me and sheila spotted 2 kawaii boys, and started playing with them.
that was when we were obssessed with jap kids. they are CUTE!! KAWAII!!!!
everytime we see kids, we take pics with them and play with them. arghhhhhh~

2008-12-01T13:01:00.002+08:00

Tag replies.
Rachael - hi straighty! thanks ^^ heart you too..
Sally - SAW YR PRESENT! thanks biu jie ^^
Gerry - no need miss liao, im back :D of cos lah, spending is so easy . o.o im changing blog song soon.
Sally - thanks for ya daily tag and keeping me tagboard alive k ^^ I LOVE YOU .
Hc - i missed you too . haha .
Rachael - YA, IM BACK ! WOO! but i dont want to be back T_T the boys there are extremely cute can? the things there are jus WOW. T_T no more toilet bowl to help me wash my butt.
Sally - THANK YOU BIU JIE! I MISSED YOU TOO~
Gerry - get from me on msn? i might me uploading it on friendster and facebook. :P

2008-12-01T00:37:00.004+08:00

HELLO SINGAPOREANS!!
IM BACK FROM JAPAN!! KONICHIWA ^^
okayyyy.. dint post on sat ( the day i touchdown ) cause, obviously too tired.
post only today cause i was out for movies with rechelle.
she's damn tamade cool can? the first 5 mins with her was filled with anxiety.
firstly, she saw me and jus zoop to my side and called my hp and while staring at me.
secondly, she dint smile or said anything.
thirdly, she's damn dao, like chief traid liddat.
man she's awesome.

alright back to japan..
first i would like to introduce our tour manager, a plump guy call paul lim aka paul-san.
he used to be a RI teacher and now a funny tour manager who likes to see ppl suffer.
second is our languge interpretter, saisho-san..a lady who seems to be in her early 40s with no wrinkles and fair skin. she's actually 60 with 3 kids 3 grandchildren.

and lastly im not gna say about what exactly happened for the 6 days, but it's gna be hell boring. so heck the educational stuff and moving on to less boring things.
-we spend 4-6 hrs on bus everyday.
-went to mountains and museum.
-played snow fight and experience snow.
-used the toilet bowl that washes asshole, damn ticklish. >< -tried the hot bath, the need to be naked kind. not bad not bad, missing it right now. and i saw alot ppl's naked butt, including ms chua's ... hohoho :P -seen alot alot of kawaii boys, the 6 yrs old kind. they are damn cute im telling you, super cute. unlike the singapore ones, so buang. -japanese ppl are way too polite and kind. they treated us like king and queens, bow to us everytime they see us ( 90 degree bow ). and nvr fail to smile. arghhh...i miss their ppl. today on MRT, saw the singaporean behaving so buangly, disgrace man. -they toilets are so clean, i think it's even cleaner than yr bedroom. none, i mean NONE of the toilet i went is dirty. even the rural areas toilet are also clean like hell, no water, no litter. but got smell cause the toilets are air-conditioned, so no ventilation. -the minamata disease is scary, they consumed methyl mercury and it damaged their central nerve system which lets them loses their ability to control their limbs and they will keep jerking non-stop. also affects their speech. terrifying . -for memory purposes. 1st day. fukuoka > nagasaki. ( A-bomb visit )
2nd day. nagasaki > kumamoto. (school exchange, samurai's history+cemetry visit and obento lunch :D )
3nd day. kumamoto > minamata.( hotto house visit and coastal features learning )
4th day. minamata > mount aso. ( SUPER boring volcano museum, even ms candice tan and ms parv fell asleep watching the 15 mins film , oh and ms chua also. HAHA. Paul-san treated us ice cream, had snow fight and experience snow )
5th day. mount aso > minamata. ( shopping at digital mall and 'suntec-like' shopping mall, high-class kind..got Coach and LV )

if im not wrong, the order should be liddat. i kinda lost track of day and time back at japan, too fun. cnt rmb such trival stuff.
I MISS THE KAWAII BOYS AND THE HOT BATH. T.T
ohoh and i had bed bite all over my legs, 40 plus bites.

and i know, you guys wan pictures right?
i've got 2oo+ of them, so ask from me on msn luh. some are with sheila though.

i must live a japan when i grow up sia. there are NO ugly ppl and NO fat ppl. im serious. even the waiter also damn shuai one. and the guys there are clean shaven with trimmed eyebrows and cute face. im serious, many of them have their eyebrows trimmed for hygenien purposes. and the girls all look like model can? .. perm hair, long eye lashes, slim legs, fair skin.
ohoh, the ppl there have got NO PIMPLES. seriously, if you think singapore is good, go to japan. you wont wan to come back.
me and sheila were so obsessed with the kids and ppl there, we were planning of getting lost there and stay there for good man.

okay, this shall be the end of my talk on thie trip. im strongly encouraging you to go japan. the ppl are great. the food are delicious. everyone are nicely dressed, even aunties and uncles. scenery is gorgeous. kids are kawaii. trust me, you wont regret. urgh..the ppl all have nice dressing, esp the guys.. damn shuai and cool i tell you. they dress way nicer than jorT, every single one of them... T.T